Yana update

subhanallah.
astaghfirullahalazim.

since Yana got admitted last night, tataw la dh berapa kali orng hosp amik darah dia. GOD. dh la bdk tu pucat nye, asek cucuk amik darah je. luckily, tapenah sekali pon Yana nangis mase orng tu amik darah.
and today, after various test
its
95%
blood cancer = leukimia

astaghfirullahalazim
ya Allah, makin sayang kau pada kitorang, makin kuat dugaan nya.
allahuakbar.

tidak akan ada orang yg pertama kali dgr perkara seperti itu, aku terdiam dan kata, takpe, aku redha. cakap sape, datang sini jmpe aku. yakin kan aku.
at first, susah bg kami nk terima. takpe, kami tahu. kami perlu redha.

kun fa ya kun.

td, around 11-ish a.m, Yana was injected with morphine. she was unconscious for almost 5-6hours.
mase dia tak sedar kan diri, doctor telah mengambil her water/blood sample *im not really sure about this* from her pelvic.
this is to detect at what stage is her leukimia.

astaghfiruallhalazim.

tiada siapa pon yang dalam rumah ini, kering mata nya dari semalam. aku pon mmg lansung tidak nyenyak tidor, dek teman kan kak Leen through texting with her. aku taw, dia takot.
tuhan, kuat kan semangat kakak ku. teguh kan iman dia.

I'm glad that my sister will tell to me first about everything.

I got a call from her at 1.15am on Wednesday morning. She cried and told me that Yana need to moved from normal ward to intensive care ward, doctor said they need to monitor her 24hrs.

astaghfirullah.

more blood was injected from her body, kak Leen knows something is not right. within an hour, Yana body was coiled with various wires.

astaghfirullah.

I woke up at 6.30 am, get myself dressed up and rushed to college to settled my registration and then I went straight to HUKM.
dengan selamba nye aku rusuh masuk ward, even though bukan visiting hours. tak kire.
I want to see Yana, I want to look at her face.
but, I'm too late. I rushed in. When I glanced at her bed, I only saw her lying on the bed, then the curtain close. I called up kak Leen's name but I found myself been kick out by the nurse. kak Leen heard me and came to me cause she needs to leave Yana at that time, sbb nk kne inject morphine.

kak Leen look me in the eyes and said
'95% confirm ya. benda tu'
she cried, really cried.
I hugged her and we cried together. she said no one knows bout this, I was the first one to know.

astaghfirullah
;(

we both sat at the waiting area, together with her hubby. abg. Anip just cried and cried and cried. Laki bini mmg nampak tak bermaya.

Ya Allah.

now, the water/blood from her pelvic result will be out on Friday, insyallah.
from then, the doctors will know her stage and they will do whatever they have to do.

doakan utk Yana, saya mohon.
Yana panggil Biha, kakak cantik :)