nothing last forever

i know, it may look a bit cranky or whatever.

but just listen to the lyrics, will you?

readers, feel this with me.

help me out on this

hey.

sorry semalam kite tak dapat nak update lansung.

i'm down with fever. again.

haih.

anw, does anyone knows why my fever only comes at night, i'm practically fine during the day tho.

appreciate much if you guys can help me with this.

ciao.

too random

they thought we're together but the real truth, we're not even close.

puas dah fikir on what to update today. ade je bende bende yang bule cite but ended up I decided that maybe I'll update about all of those later.

lets talk something routine, or random.

something like 'hey, I've thought of that but forgot to talk bout it'.

for example, pernah tak rase yang kite macam so close with someone, so close until we trust them with our deepest secret, eventho we're just known that person for like, what, a month?

or

sometimes kite rase kite dh treat orang sehabis baik but sebenarnye, ade je bende yang tak betol pada mata dia

or

kite rase bile bawak kereta its important to give signals but sebenarnye bile kite nampak orng bagi signal and nak masuk lane kite, we're gonna be soo greedy. takkan nak bg dia masuk lane kite jugak, dan dan tu teros drive laju.

hehe. okay, yang last tu mcm luahan perasaan sikit.

tadi pon borak borak dgn mak, dgn kak leen, pasal budak budak ni. pasal Aiman dgn Yana. Aiman yg sekarang dh 7 tahun and prasan dia mcm dh pandai dah bace al-Fatihah. tapayah nak dibetol kan ape lagi dah.

macam Yana yang mmg sangat sangat degil. orng suro ape pon dia tanak buat, dia tak tataw ape tiu erti menunggu,. if she want something, she want it NOW.

if she dont know how to do something, she'll cry. if she dont know how to something pon, she'll cry.

macam tadi, kak leen ajar dia main this one makeover online game taw. kak leen had to tutor her all the time, nak pegang mouse macam mane, nk click kt mane.

then, bile kak leen stop kejap sbb nk dinner, Yana ended up click on something else, and she ended up crying of it. sebab ape? sebab dia tataw nak main.

and at that moment, me, kak leen and mak were all agreed at one thing.

its a genetic.

do you know that if I want something, and I know I could have it but because of other simple things that I cannot handle by myself, I will cry.

like macam tadi, I cannot online using my Vaio eventho the wifi mmg dh connect, tp bile bkk Chrome, it said tht tade internet connection. so, I tried to fix that but sampai kesudah, lansung tak bule.

so, I cried. well, not really cried, just meleleh lah. heeee

and do you know that kak leen dont play games. me and kak leen, both of us dont play games like Pacman or any Harry Potter games kat playstation ke, or ape2 game yg ade win and lose.

we're gonna cry taw.

I still remember this one time when PS 1 was so in, baba bought that for me and I was playing Harry Potter punye game taw, and then sampai kt this one stage, I cannot reached to the next level sbb I dont know how to play with it.

end up, I cried. Memy yg tolong main kan sampai I reached the next level. heeee

so, its normal la kan kalau Yana nangis nangis gitu.

oh. kalau mak pulak, she cried when she's angry.

conclusion ; we all girls in this house like to cry :)

and korang penah tak rase yang you guys were really puas hati with you have now, until something happen, everything will turn the other way round.

I still remember when me and Ady were together, I mean not together as an item, together as in like just the two of us.

we both have friends but we're like really comfortable by hangin out just the two us. like goin to movies together, lepak mamak together, everything for just the two of us.

sometimes, in a day, 3-4 times we meet up. dgn call lagi, texting, YM, skype, you know, everything, you name it we have it.

we're like living in a world just the two of us.

and now, we're like in a group. i'm not saying is a bad thing but i'm saying sometimes I need time just by ourselves, you know just the two of us.

but as a friends, you know you that wouldnt happen. lagi lagi kalau dah rapat dengan semua kan. when everytime nak kluar just the two of us je pon, its gonna be like a bit awkward, like, eh, mane sipolan tu, oh, sipolan ni mane.

you guys get what I mean? haha.

what i'm saying is sometimes, changes are good. especially when you're friends like in a group, when something happen you want the whole group to know. why? because we feel like they need to know, they have to know, theyre our friends. kan?

tapi kadang kadang, macam biase la, dalam ramai ramai, sorang dua tu mesti ade yg rapat. like, me and ady. we're close because we've been hangin out together for so long, so many times.

then, when changes happen, when you start hangin out in a group, they'll be one or two people thats gonna feel left out.

honestly, sometimes I did feel that way. like when Ady can always have lunch with Dann like whenever they wanted while I cannot unless my parents are not at home.

or when Dann can always go to Pavy like at 4pm with random people while I cant cause baba forbid me.

or when they can always go karaoke or movies on weekdays cause its much cheaper than weekends, while the only days i can go out is on weekend which is when everything will be a bit pricy.

sometimes, you just gotta think positive. like, hey, its okay. they all can go out today, for like 4 hours but when it comes to weekend, I can go out like for 8hours straight.

or when they go out for lunch together like everyday, then I can go out lunch wth them in just a day, but still have the same topic that they discussed.

tapi, kadang kadang terasa jugak kan when all of these time you were so close with someone, but not until someone new coming in and the other person feels much much more comfortable talking all of the stuff wth that new person.
before this, if something happen, you'll be the first one to know but not anymore. and at that point, you're gonna feel replace, feel so left out, feels unwanted.

but all of the sudden, cute things happen and that magically makes you feel okay in no time.

oh. do you guys agree on the facts that small things that matters the most

i mean, come on la kan. bende remeh mcm ni la yg bule strengthen kan a relationship. like you know, katekan lah between daddy and his daughter, like me and baba. eventho I'm 20, baba sometimes did kiss me on cheek, like this morning, mase nk pegi college. he's like sayin, 'ciom baba, dh lame tak ciom kan'. you knw, bnd yg mcm like 'alaa, perlu ke?'

or, like me and mak. sometimes when she's at dapur, masak, i'll go to her, borak borak then i kissed her on the cheek. you know, just like nak she knows,'hey mak, ilove you'.

or or, you're like jalan jalan, and you saw this one thing that you really reminds of your friend, ape la salahnye, like grab a phone and call and like say 'hey, aku jalan kt Tangs ni, tenampak ade notebook cantik, kalau kau tengok, mesti kau suke, tu yg aku teringat kt kau'.

these kinda things la for me, matters the most.

sometimes, like whenever I went out with Alia, helped her to find things that she wanted, but shes like being cranky ke ape ke kan, then she'll gonna like held my hand and say 'hey, thanks okay, for teman, evn tho i'm a bit cranky, i love you'.

kite yg dgr ni pon teros mcm, haaaa, sedab sikit hati.

kalau mcm me and ady, sometimes we go out, i'll tend to be such a spoiled brat, like papi, this and that, can you do this, can you do that, but in the end, ape la salahnye like sayin 'thanks papi for the day'.

you dont have to buy something expensive or do something big to show your love, a simple thoughts that matters the most.

now, all you guys out there, when was the last time you guys kiss your mom randomly?

when was the last time you said thank you to your friend for willingly to YM with you cause youre bored?

or when was your last time you buy JCo donuts for your classmate cause they always sign for your attendance?

hope you guys really understand what I'm trying to say here.

if korang bace gitu je, it may means nothing. but if korang bace and try to picture what i'm trying to say here, you guys will get the hints.

anwyay, talk to you guys soon.

ciao !

p/s : oh, hey readers. thanks for reading okay.

confused

sometimes i loook super fat in picture taw.

sometime i look thin.

sometime i look just okay.

i dont know why la. stress stress

but, one thing i know for sure, my mom always making such a big deal about my body.

gemok gemok gemok

but, i did lose a bit weight seyy.

but she kept sayin i gain weight a lot.

when people see me, they'll be like 'eh, bdn susut sikit'.

but when my mom heard people talking bout diet she's gonna stand up loud and let everybody knows that her daughter is super fat. she's gonna make such a big scene about it.

and now, i'm not sure about my own body.

if i gain weight, how come i can wear some tops that i cant wear before.

and, whenever i wear my baju kurung, its gonna look like i'm wearing someone else's baju kurung.

weird.

but, I can guaranteed that this next next next next *not sure when i'm gonna post* entry that I'm gonna post will have a lot of pictures of myself, looking super fat.

especially on the hand. lengan besar seyy, kalau hari hari pegi gym, bule kalah malek noor kot.

grrr.

okay. gonna stop blabbing.

ehem ehem

lalalalalalala ~

ciao !

spotlight stealer

just got back from dinner with my family.
supposed to be Mak's special night cause its her birthday kan.
but then, someone sooo cute had stole the spotlight and everybody cannot do anything because no matter what day it is, what night it is, whatever dinner it is, she will be the spotlight :Pbaru nak warm up. mulot rioh sibok tegor orangtak bekelip langsung kau nyah pandang camera. silau sikit2 je sbb flash tp no hal punye. buat continuous shot, satu pon tade mate kelip. teror kan !see, bg tgk muke dia kt shotgun tu pastu sukeee betol. nampak gigi jarang. heee. Oni bule gang dgn Madonna lah ;p

oh. kitorang dinner kt Keramat. kedai my cousin tu. sedab sedab sedab.
no wonder la aku mcm lapa giler sbb rupenye aku tak makan since 10am. raawwwrr !

mak mak mak mak ; Happy Burpday. sayang sayang sayang.

tetibe en, teringat pulak. ade la this one time mase skola dlu. aku bawak balik surat taw. tak ingt la surat ape, then bg la kt mak.
surat tu belipat taw, then mak tnye la, surat ape ni. and I said, oh. dari pengetua, Ya buat hal kat skola, so ni surat gantung skola.
Mak tekejot giler and teros nangis. OMG. haha. I was like, maaaaak. bukan la. Ya main main je taw. I felt so dem guilty the whole day. shit maaan. haha.
and Mak was like, Ya jgn la buat mak mcm ni, tekejot taw. tetibe balik skola kate kene gantung, mak ingt Ya okay je kt skola.
haha. oooh. mase tu rase bedosa gile yang hamat okay. hehe. puas la pujok mak ape sume ;p

budak oooh budak.
tak matured betol kan. cheeeewaaaah !

L word

Amira Zafirah is currently dealing with

; her studies. still havent decide whether to drop subject or not. and my latest thoughts of my study, I feel I wanted to repeat my Biz Math on next sem and continue with my Costing. but then, Marketing seems fine but MicroEcons getting no way.

; Chin Ai Lin. something about this lady that effects me. I am so not ready to blog it. I am so not ready bout it. not this time.

; and families. can I have my old families back? kenape bile stress, masing2 nak fikir negative? kenape bile stress, masing2 nak marah2 ? aku percaya, Yana is goin to be fine. peoples, you believe that too right? tell me. sbb kt rumah, seems that I'm the only one that thinks like that.

my blog is getting pathetic. lately sume entry emo shit.
korang mesti fikir aku sangap kan simpati.
sumpa aku takesah kalau itu yang kau fikir, sbb itu hotak kau. hotak kau kolot.

kalau terjumpa aku
; jangan tanya kenape muka aku pucat, mata aku bengkak.
; jangan bg ayat simpati pasal Yana. aku benci tu. aku benci dengar "aaaaw", "ish,kesian nye".
dan yang paling aku benci dengar
; "dlu sapesape aku kene leukimia jgk, tp tu lah. tak lame. dh meninggal."
BUTOH kau.

filthy

*sticky mode entry*
*scroll down for new entry*

bahasa aku semakin kasar.
bahasa aku semakin sarcastic.

aku taw korang benci bace.
aku taw korang benci dengar.

everything happens for a reason.

bukan sengaja aku menjadi semakin kurang hajar.
tapi, sekali kau cakap kasar dengan aku.
aku bayar 10 kali lagi kasar.

ini bukan balas dendam.
ini adalah apa yang kau patut terima.

you deserved my filthy words.
because you treat me like filthy worms.

kepada siapa yang terasa ;
"ada aku kisah?"
*sepotong ayat yang paling aku benci. sebenci aku pada setan*

sejak aku sedar yang aku perlu jaga diri sendiri,
sejak aku sedar aku perlu pertahan kan diri,
aku makin kuat berentap.
bukan nak cari gado, tp self-defense.
tanya budak college aku, diaorang lebih tahu.
aku tiada siapa untuk bergantung.
kawan2 ade hidup sendiri, aku lebih suka pendam apa yang aku rasa.
nasib ade blog. ini kawan paling rapat.

tiade kekerasan.
aku tak maki hamun kalau aku berentap perkara yang serious,
tapi, aku cakap dengan terang dan jelas.
aku benci kalau aku terpaksa cakap begitu.
sebab, aku taw orang tu nanti mesti benci aku.

maaf, mulut aku agak gampang.
mak aku pon cakap aku mulut laser.
kalau tak dapat terima, jangan cari gado dengan aku.

cukup.
lain sume private and confidential.
aku tanak ade yang terasa.
ape lagi, terluka.

eventhough aku taw,
akan ada yang terasa
akan ada yang tak henti2 fikir aku cakap pasal sape.
aku cakap pasal manusia.

termasuk aku.

hangen hangen.

haaa. tengok2 je teros ade muka aku.
drag queen or not, harus aku jaja. nama pon blog aku.
itu mmg sangat la bukan muka happy aku. tu muka bengang.
bengang yang hamat.

sedang la aku emo shit yg mcm hareeeeeem ini, shit things happen.
late evening td pgi workshop, sbb skirting gen 2 tu mcm tanggal a bit. dh betol kan sume teros la pgi basuh kete, kata pun Memy nk amik kete right.

BUT THEN,
fak you keling paria. dia patah kan handle pintu kete aku. dem.

gini ceritenye,
mase dia basuh kete tu, mmg aku tengook je. harus la kan, kot2 ade dia curi ke ape ke. then, aku nampak taw, mamat ni sorang dia bukak pintu blakang, tbe2 mcm something tertanggal. teros dia bukak pintu depan and end up bukak dr dlm taw. aku dah bengang dah ni. sbb taw la en, mst dh patah or whatsover.
aku tak serang lagi, diam jee. tunggu dia dtg say sorry ke ape ke tak en.
but of course la en, HARAPAN AH DIA NAK MENGAKU.
kete aku dh siap lap ape sume, aku pgi mmg teros naik hangen la. mmg dh mcm drama kat situ. suara pon dh tuka jdi suara jantan dah. orang dh pandang2. lantak la, ingt kau semua jantan, aku betina sorang kt sini, aku cuak ar. fak you.

mase aku tanye, tade sape ngaku. aku lagi hangen. mmg aku shoot kaw2 ar kt mamat bodo tu. ingat aku buta. tak nampak dia yang buat. pastu bos dia dtg, bule pulak buat drama tamil nak marah orng dia. aku selit, teros tengking. ye ar. ingt kau marah2 tu, bnd tu bule sambung balik ke. then, bos dia kate suro aku bwk kete pg wrkshop, ganti and bg bill kt dia. then dia bayar. aku teros blah and pg balik workshop td.

tokey workshop tu pon dah heran. aku cite berapi kt dia. tokey tu pon dh cuak semacam muka dia. teros dia call orang. then dia kate kene order, esok baru sampai. hangen lagi aaar. aku ckp esok kete ni nk pg JB. so, aku nak brng tu petang ni jgk. chill ar.bru pkol 3pm kott. nak tgg esok kejadah. bkn nye bnd tu kau nk cargo dari bangladesh pon. tokey tu call balik, dan2 kate bule. jap lg barang smpai. eyyy.

so, aku tunggu je la sorang kt workshop tu, smpai la brang tu orng hantar. aku call ar Baba. kne la inform kang dia ingt aku ni merayap. bapak aku tu pon satu, pantang aku tade rumah, merayap memanjang. ape ingt aku ni ular nak merayap je. hangen hangen. then, bile aku call, bule pulak nk lecture knpe nk bsuh kt kdai la, basuh sndri la. haaaaa. aku dh hangen ni, nk lecture lagi, mmg aku jadi anak durhaka la kejap en. aku ckp bnd dh jadi so dah ar. its to fix, tapayah la nak bebel. eyy.

then, call Memy. tepaksa la inform en sbb bnde mmg nampak dgn jelas nye. Memy pon mcm cuak kott dgr aku dh marah2. dia teros mcm, 'dah dah. tgg la eh. bwk kete elok2'. huwm.
aku lepak punye lepak, then teringat Pole. aku call and dia pon datang la dgn Amer. mase dia sampai tu kete dh siap, aku suro dia tgg kt tmpt car wash tu je.

TAK HABIS HANGEN AKU LAGI NI,
kene rm50 taw. nasib aku ade cash and nasib la tokey kedai tu tak charge aku for service pasang, dia kate takpe la. sbb tu la dpt murah and lg pon handle tu tak genuine. lantak la, aku malas nak fikir dah. pegi balik kt carwash tu, bos nye takde. aku mmg dh hangen, marah2 lg dgn keling2 lain tu. then diaorng kate bos tade, pgi makan. pastu bos dia pesan, suro aku byr yg aku basuh kete.
fakker. kau dh pth kan handle tu, bule mintak aku bayar. eyyy. aku tengking2 dlu, nsib mase tu bos dia tade je. and bayar pon rm10 je en. aku cam, 'nah. ambik ni. dh pth kan, mntak byr lg. tak gune betol'.
eyy. Pole dgn Amer ade, diaorng diam je. cuak la kott. ntah la, whatever. hangen hangen.

lepas dh settle sume, bwk la Pole dgn Amer pgi BRJ. ye ar. diaorng dh sdtg sume, takkan nk halau balik en. lepak2 ar jap. bagi aku ni cool down dulu. sabar mira, sabar.

mmg this week is like bad week for me okay. demit ar.
ergh.

p/s : tokey kedai tu mcm agak cute sebenarnya, tp dlm gmbr ni mcm agak burok. ahaha :]

fix sudaah

today, konon nak bangun awal la. nak hantar kete pgi workshop en.

but then, bangun awal2 pon, turun bawah, continue dkt couch pulak. haha.

end up bgn mcm biase je :D

so, cepat2 la mandi sume, then bawak kete pgi workshop. I went to the gen 2's very own 'plastic surgeon'. hehe.

sampai2 je, owner of the workshop yang came to greet me. oh. I went there alone. Chin ade class, Ady pon same. aiseyy.

so, talk to the guy and he said he can do it. kejap je. tokey kedai yang buat kan taw. cheeee :P

tu nampak tak yang mcm lain color sikit tu. haaa. skirting kat situ la yang tanggal. haih. ni sume Yum ar ni doww. mulut masin betol. grrr. hahahaaa. tu. he did something to it lah. I just supervised je. hehe.

He evem volunteer drive kan my car into the workshop. and drive out too. haha. better right, kang tak pasal2 bende lain yang tanggal :D

He asked my brother mane, I langgar ape. haha. He just laughed when I said to him that my brother tataw. hehe. nnt2 dia taw sendiri.
huwm. I'm not sure la whether he read my blog or not. hope not. haha.

when everythings done, kene rm30 saje. nasib la murah. then, ingt nk pg hantar cat sbb dpn tu mcm ade geser2 mcm tu en. then, baba cakap tapayah sbb sikit je. rugi duit je buat. I was like. oow. okay. meaning, I have to get ready la by this weekend sbb Memy dtg rumah. haha. nnt nk selawat banyak2 sembur2 kt muka dia. HA HA HA.

anw, esok I'm out wth Dann. yeyyy. finally. KLCC, here I come. haha.
&&& ade entry pending. tgg pictures from Dann dlu. *weeee

p/s : Syaa, I wait for you taw :)

p/s : Pole, aku gedik en? FINE. whenever theres him, I'm not gonna be there. puas hati. a'ah. aku emo shit. grrr.

shit

its
weekend
and
i'm
bored
bored
bored.

get it?


Ezan Alia,
I'm counting days for you to come home.
everyday.
lagi dekat, lagi mcm lame.
:(

Wawa ; just tell me when you wanna go out. stop giving me dates.

Chin && Ady ; if you guys wanna go out, like not lepak at mamak or whatsoever, when my parents is not around, then we can go out like anytime we want. If my parents ade kat rumah, I CANT. I'm LOCKED okay. and Chin, balik lambat aku like before 8pm lah. curfew baba pukul 6 kott. takkan tak taw lagi. 6years dah kott we're friends. haih.

Luqman ; sumpah i tafaham those pre register thingy.yg UiTM tu settle sudah, tp yg KPTM tu. aper cer weh. roger sape2 nnt.

Oya ; pgi ar doww wedding tu. aku teman kan kau. betol. tak tipu punye.

a'ah. entry ni mcm aku create attention // sympathy.
ade aku kisah ke?
pegi M .

ATTENTION.
i'm PMS. jangan cari pasal.
kalau sape nak rase mcm nak kene tepek pad dgn aku.
cari ar pasal.
biar kau samak 78 kali.
HA HA HA HA.

fak.
I HATE PMS.

p/s : aku benci orang yg mase mula2 kenal, baik nauzzubillah dgn aku. konon rapat ar. thn tibe2, langsung tanak contact. aku benci orang yang baik dgn aku semata mata nak rapat dgn orang yg aku kenal, kire amik kesempatan ar. fak yourself to stinky bitch la weh.

p/s lagi : oh. memang aku tujukan p/s atas ni for someone. kau terasa? nmpak sgt kau la tu. haha.

Gila.

toodles.

aku sangap ****k.
demit.

cari gadoh

ini entry cari gadoh.
mangsa ; Izza the Pinkerton.
HA HA HA.

saya bosan dan sangat sedih. perlu menghiburkan hati yang duka lara okay :P
so, saje cari gado dgn iza. haha. bagi dia geram.
Iza, I mmg suka show off. but only at this moment and only with you, sbb sajeeeeeeee.

you nak Vaio eh?

hehe. I ade dah. pic tak clear sbb I gune webcam. saje je. nnt kalau clear sgt you jeles pulak :D

you nak phone mcm Blair Waldorf kan?

mine is HTC la. tp kan, dia still bule bukak2. hehhe. I brangan konon ni sidekick mcm Kim Kardashian. konooon lah. ahaha.

haha. Iza, I taw you tak marah kan. I tau you geram je. ngadu kt Mus taw :P

oh. and peoples,

I'm using this lappy now. its Lenovo. the Acer kak Leen amik sbb its features mcm not very suitable for me la. eventhough lighter sikit dr this one.
mine is white and Memy's is black.

waaaah. show off betol en. biase la, mira kan mmg suka show off ni.
Mira kan belagak.
hiks ;DDDDDDDDD

p/s ; erk. hati rabak sudah okay. demit.

aiman

punye la besungguh aku pujuk dia nk amik gambar okay.

susah betol, tp dapat la sikit :)

heee. among 3 of the kids, he is the closest to me.
ingt lg mase kecik2, bdk ni tanak baring taw. so, dia tido duduk. aku la pegang dia, lenguh pon takpe la. janji dia tido.
Aiman si supeeeer hyper. gilooos punye. but, dh besar2 ni okay la. getting better.
he is very emotinal, huwm. keturunan kott. genetic. haha.

p/s : dia ni rapat ooh dgn Qayyum. haha. dlu slalu giler tanye 'abg besar mane?'. *hehe. dia panggil Yum abg besar, Pole abg kecik*. so, skrang agaknye dia dh biase en, jarang la dia tanye. tp biler teringat, tenampak gambar, mmg dia tanye lah. jenuh pulak aku nak jawab okay. grr

p/s lagi : seee, bkn mak sorang je rindu kat dia nok. bdk2 ni pon rindu jugak taw. haha

p/s lagi lagi : dem. rindu ke. tade tade. teringat.

P/S : END

blog jugaaak

oh.

tadi YM dengan Qayyum.
hiks ;p

of course la dia gune account lain.
gile hape aku nak add dia gune account dia dgn gf dia.
memang meroyan la aku.
hehhe.

we didnt talked about serious matters.
I'm sure he had fun because, deeeemn. dia memang bahan aku doww.
kejam kejam. grr.
chill en.

sabaaar. buat bodo saje.
its a good thing actually.
lame2, bule biasekan diri.
I NEED to adapt this whole new environment that I had with him.
wajib.

p/s : tade nye saya nak print screen la Yum. print screen pon tak reti. haha.

p/s lagi : ini entry auto publish. TADI tu meaning on tuesday night. hehhe. lame betol aku pending kan ;p

my friend is your friend is her friend is his friend is me

deeemn.
my live.

huwm. where to start. aduhai. I dont know where to start actually.
okay la. since I broke up with Yum and stuff, I tried my best to not getting involved with people related to him.
by doing that, I kinda make myself to all of the friends that I made in my past. Because, his friends are my friends too. faham?
in the end, I only stick with Chin and getting closer and closer to Alia.

now, lets start :)

in my college, I met Dara. she was Dylla's bestfriend. I know Dylla through myspace. I've met her few times, YM and stuff. kinda good friends jgk la.

from Dylla, I met Fiqa, her bestfriend. I'm kinda close with Fiqa, until today. Currently, Fiqa is studying at Unisel and she knows Pidot. oh, Fiqa's friend name Att have a boyf name Megat. Megat was Pole's schoolmate. He is also had a crushed on Biha, until now. haha.

oh. Pidot. I knowed Pidot when I went to the Summer Splash. He is Biha's friend. They're kinda close that time. Pidot is also Ady's dormate during highschool. oh, I knowed Ady through Biha. Pidot also know a girl named Syafnida, which is also Biha's friend.

Syaa, my loyal reader was also Tok Kadi, my collagemate, schoolmate during his highschool. haha. Me and Syaa know each other through blog and tak sangka, bule kenal pulak Kadi. haih.

another blog reader, Izza. her boyf is Yum's roomate. haha. hence, her boyf knows Yum and Pole too.

huwm. sape lagi eh?

oh. during my driving test, I met a girl named Aqila. now, she is my collagemate, which is Dara's roomate. hence, she knows Dylla too.

oh. new blog reader, Ssin, studied at KLMU. same as Yum's girlfriend. ooho. I hope they dont know each other.
&& Izza is also study at Pole's ex-gf college. no, they didnt know each other. hehhe.

haaaa. theres also a girl in my college that I called by the name "Altantuya", because she did look like her. hehe. That girl is Ady's ex-gf. so, she knows Ady.
&&&& Kadi's bestfriend in college, Beca, which is also kinda good friend of me knows Ady too. because, they both studied at the same school. haha.

Amira is a friend of Aqila which also a friend of Dara, which is Dylla's was bestfriends, which also knows Fiqa, which close to Att, which is Megat's gf which had a crush on Biha, which knows Pidot that was Ady's doormate which was Beca's schoolamate that is a goodfriends with Kadi that knows Altantuya.

Amira is superfriend with Pole which is Qayyum's besties which is Izza's boyfriends's roomate that studied at the same place as Pole's ex-gf.

Amira is Ssin readers that knows my kanda that are also friends with Ady which is Biha know since she's in primary school, which is her boyf now is Ameer, which is Pidot has a crush on.
oh. Pidot is gay. hehe.
no offense. he admit to me and I am so sure that he dont mind I'm saying this because he admits that to everybody.

erk. thats all I could think right now. ade lagi kott, but tahengat la mak nyah ooi.

anyway, welcome to my live.
which is everybody lives too.

hiks ;D

awayyy

i'm gonna be awayy for a few days.
I've set some auto publish entry.

I'm gonna bring along my lappy. so, if theres wifi I'm sure gonna update a bit.
but, of course la wth no pictures.


toodles.


p/s : my life is getting more and more and more people involved.

nowadays

nowadays, I dont know what has got into me.

nowadays, I tend to get pissed off soooo easily.

nowadays, I ate a loooot.

nowadays, I always thought over silly things.

nowadays, my chest feel hurt whenever I hunch it.

nowadays, I dont mingle well with my friends.

nowadays, I only feel happy when I'm with my family.

nowadays, I become super lazy.

nowadays, I online almost all the time.

nowadays, I dont have the feeling of shopping.

nowadays, I felt stupid when I thought about my past.

nowadays, I dont have the mood to bake.

nowadays, I feel that I need to be loved.

*sighed*

fak-ker.

ady lagi

ady update blog doww.
OMG OMG OMG.
no wonder la aku rase lain macam je today.
haha. tibe tibe :D

anyway ;
ade entries pasal concert aiman, auto publish. nnt2 ado la tuu. tp korang jgn la pulak refresh setiap 5 minit. mmg nan adoo nye lah. haha.

and and and

i'm excited for tomorrow night.
blog it later

toodles
;)

DONE

owwwwwwwwwwwww yeh!

alaaa. marah aku dekat Yum tu kejap je.
kata pun Qayyum en.
miaaahahahaha.
tapi geram still ade okay
*winks*
;)

anywayyy, I'm done with my final exam.
HA HA HA HA
*gelak besar, tepuk perut sekali*
syoook bai.

now, off 5 weeks. huwm. ape nak buat eh.

today bosan gileeeer. tibe tibe kan, ade mood nak study. ehhe. exam dah habis, dan dan pulak mood study datang. ish ish ish. pelik pelik je kan. mase tengah struggle giler giler nak study, mood tu tade pulak :P

weyy, nak buat ape niii?
baking ; tade mood
nak kuar ; alaa, nnt mesti mak bising. asik kuar jee.

aduyaaai.
oh. I've decided nak pegi prom college Chin, sebab dia ugut aku taw.
and my date
*drum roll please*
POLE !
*anda dipersilakan untuk gelak guling guling, tebahak bahak saje pun tak mengapa*
:))

Chin pulak date dia Ady. aku dengan Pole, waaaaaaa. bukan tanak, Pole hot hot heat kot
*ni biar aku gelak sorang sorang :D*
so, now I am super concern of my dress, nak pakai ape ni.
mak ni dah la gemok nyah ooi, bule gang dgn Erra Fazira, mase dia mengandung la. tp nnt dia dh beranak, dh into shape, tak same dgn aku dah :P

tolong tolong, dress pun kene sopan sopan sikit. mane bule dedah dedah.
hareeeeeeeeeeem *pffffftttt
tanak ketat ketat, kang betingkat je lemak lemak yang sedia ade betingkat ni. hehe.

so, mission pada minggu ini ;
dress hunting :D

I'm pissed

yes. after all this time, I feel pissed off.
lets jst get straight to the point.

I went out last night, lepaked at RHB, again.
with Chin and Ady, together with Pole, Qayyum and Malik. again.

I brought my new lappy. Its Lenovo and its white. I like it.
My Acer is with kak Leen, thats why I brought the new one.
I've never used it until yesterday morning, I charged the battery so that Chin can online.

At RHB, Chin was the first one to rasmikan the lappy. I dont mind.
later, joined by Qayyum. both of them asked for my permission to install YM.
I said okay.
they used the laptop all night until the battery kong.
I dont mind, I online with my PDA.

and this morning, I on the laptop to transfer the pictures that had been bluetooth by Chin.
and there it is, the YM home.
the name of Qayyum and her gf.
HA HA HA. I'm pissed.

such a great breakfast for me.
thanks god. nice one.

ergh. Its my effin friggin laptop with their effin friggin name on the desktop.
sape tak menyirap weyy.
yes Qayyum, I know you reading this.
I'm pissed and I want you to know that eventhough I know you dont care.

hey Pole, small thing that matters the most okay.
faham?

now, I need to online with that laptop so I can change it.
I need wifi. demit.

p/s : this is not an auto publish entry. Melaka trip entry will be the next one.