too random

they thought we're together but the real truth, we're not even close.

puas dah fikir on what to update today. ade je bende bende yang bule cite but ended up I decided that maybe I'll update about all of those later.

lets talk something routine, or random.

something like 'hey, I've thought of that but forgot to talk bout it'.

for example, pernah tak rase yang kite macam so close with someone, so close until we trust them with our deepest secret, eventho we're just known that person for like, what, a month?

or

sometimes kite rase kite dh treat orang sehabis baik but sebenarnye, ade je bende yang tak betol pada mata dia

or

kite rase bile bawak kereta its important to give signals but sebenarnye bile kite nampak orng bagi signal and nak masuk lane kite, we're gonna be soo greedy. takkan nak bg dia masuk lane kite jugak, dan dan tu teros drive laju.

hehe. okay, yang last tu mcm luahan perasaan sikit.

tadi pon borak borak dgn mak, dgn kak leen, pasal budak budak ni. pasal Aiman dgn Yana. Aiman yg sekarang dh 7 tahun and prasan dia mcm dh pandai dah bace al-Fatihah. tapayah nak dibetol kan ape lagi dah.

macam Yana yang mmg sangat sangat degil. orng suro ape pon dia tanak buat, dia tak tataw ape tiu erti menunggu,. if she want something, she want it NOW.

if she dont know how to do something, she'll cry. if she dont know how to something pon, she'll cry.

macam tadi, kak leen ajar dia main this one makeover online game taw. kak leen had to tutor her all the time, nak pegang mouse macam mane, nk click kt mane.

then, bile kak leen stop kejap sbb nk dinner, Yana ended up click on something else, and she ended up crying of it. sebab ape? sebab dia tataw nak main.

and at that moment, me, kak leen and mak were all agreed at one thing.

its a genetic.

do you know that if I want something, and I know I could have it but because of other simple things that I cannot handle by myself, I will cry.

like macam tadi, I cannot online using my Vaio eventho the wifi mmg dh connect, tp bile bkk Chrome, it said tht tade internet connection. so, I tried to fix that but sampai kesudah, lansung tak bule.

so, I cried. well, not really cried, just meleleh lah. heeee

and do you know that kak leen dont play games. me and kak leen, both of us dont play games like Pacman or any Harry Potter games kat playstation ke, or ape2 game yg ade win and lose.

we're gonna cry taw.

I still remember this one time when PS 1 was so in, baba bought that for me and I was playing Harry Potter punye game taw, and then sampai kt this one stage, I cannot reached to the next level sbb I dont know how to play with it.

end up, I cried. Memy yg tolong main kan sampai I reached the next level. heeee

so, its normal la kan kalau Yana nangis nangis gitu.

oh. kalau mak pulak, she cried when she's angry.

conclusion ; we all girls in this house like to cry :)

and korang penah tak rase yang you guys were really puas hati with you have now, until something happen, everything will turn the other way round.

I still remember when me and Ady were together, I mean not together as an item, together as in like just the two of us.

we both have friends but we're like really comfortable by hangin out just the two us. like goin to movies together, lepak mamak together, everything for just the two of us.

sometimes, in a day, 3-4 times we meet up. dgn call lagi, texting, YM, skype, you know, everything, you name it we have it.

we're like living in a world just the two of us.

and now, we're like in a group. i'm not saying is a bad thing but i'm saying sometimes I need time just by ourselves, you know just the two of us.

but as a friends, you know you that wouldnt happen. lagi lagi kalau dah rapat dengan semua kan. when everytime nak kluar just the two of us je pon, its gonna be like a bit awkward, like, eh, mane sipolan tu, oh, sipolan ni mane.

you guys get what I mean? haha.

what i'm saying is sometimes, changes are good. especially when you're friends like in a group, when something happen you want the whole group to know. why? because we feel like they need to know, they have to know, theyre our friends. kan?

tapi kadang kadang, macam biase la, dalam ramai ramai, sorang dua tu mesti ade yg rapat. like, me and ady. we're close because we've been hangin out together for so long, so many times.

then, when changes happen, when you start hangin out in a group, they'll be one or two people thats gonna feel left out.

honestly, sometimes I did feel that way. like when Ady can always have lunch with Dann like whenever they wanted while I cannot unless my parents are not at home.

or when Dann can always go to Pavy like at 4pm with random people while I cant cause baba forbid me.

or when they can always go karaoke or movies on weekdays cause its much cheaper than weekends, while the only days i can go out is on weekend which is when everything will be a bit pricy.

sometimes, you just gotta think positive. like, hey, its okay. they all can go out today, for like 4 hours but when it comes to weekend, I can go out like for 8hours straight.

or when they go out for lunch together like everyday, then I can go out lunch wth them in just a day, but still have the same topic that they discussed.

tapi, kadang kadang terasa jugak kan when all of these time you were so close with someone, but not until someone new coming in and the other person feels much much more comfortable talking all of the stuff wth that new person.
before this, if something happen, you'll be the first one to know but not anymore. and at that point, you're gonna feel replace, feel so left out, feels unwanted.

but all of the sudden, cute things happen and that magically makes you feel okay in no time.

oh. do you guys agree on the facts that small things that matters the most

i mean, come on la kan. bende remeh mcm ni la yg bule strengthen kan a relationship. like you know, katekan lah between daddy and his daughter, like me and baba. eventho I'm 20, baba sometimes did kiss me on cheek, like this morning, mase nk pegi college. he's like sayin, 'ciom baba, dh lame tak ciom kan'. you knw, bnd yg mcm like 'alaa, perlu ke?'

or, like me and mak. sometimes when she's at dapur, masak, i'll go to her, borak borak then i kissed her on the cheek. you know, just like nak she knows,'hey mak, ilove you'.

or or, you're like jalan jalan, and you saw this one thing that you really reminds of your friend, ape la salahnye, like grab a phone and call and like say 'hey, aku jalan kt Tangs ni, tenampak ade notebook cantik, kalau kau tengok, mesti kau suke, tu yg aku teringat kt kau'.

these kinda things la for me, matters the most.

sometimes, like whenever I went out with Alia, helped her to find things that she wanted, but shes like being cranky ke ape ke kan, then she'll gonna like held my hand and say 'hey, thanks okay, for teman, evn tho i'm a bit cranky, i love you'.

kite yg dgr ni pon teros mcm, haaaa, sedab sikit hati.

kalau mcm me and ady, sometimes we go out, i'll tend to be such a spoiled brat, like papi, this and that, can you do this, can you do that, but in the end, ape la salahnye like sayin 'thanks papi for the day'.

you dont have to buy something expensive or do something big to show your love, a simple thoughts that matters the most.

now, all you guys out there, when was the last time you guys kiss your mom randomly?

when was the last time you said thank you to your friend for willingly to YM with you cause youre bored?

or when was your last time you buy JCo donuts for your classmate cause they always sign for your attendance?

hope you guys really understand what I'm trying to say here.

if korang bace gitu je, it may means nothing. but if korang bace and try to picture what i'm trying to say here, you guys will get the hints.

anwyay, talk to you guys soon.

ciao !

p/s : oh, hey readers. thanks for reading okay.