RIP Lola ;(

i'm gonna miss you Lola

some stupid-moron-no money-jackass-manbitch stole my car.

I went to PWTC with kak leen for the local products exhibition. and the moment i came back to the parking lot, it was a different car.

no Lola anymore.

i'm sad. so so sad. major sad. ultimate sad.

all of my heels collections are in the car, my Keds, my Debenhams, my favourite pumps and flops.

mp3 player, my stress ball, my house key.

my smart tag and touch n go, my carpets, my roller blades, my books, all. gone.

done with police reports and stuff. gotta wait for 6months from now.

if theres still no news, gotta claim insurance. and that will take about 1 year?

argh. screw you son of a bitch

all i have now is, my car keys. every time i look at it, i miss my Lola :(

^__^

kalau sayang, bukan main lagi. pakai baju tebalik pon dah kire lucu gile nak mati. semua la sanggup.

tapi kalau dah menyampah, salah sikat rambut pon dah mengamuk habis.

alhamdulillah

hello people (:

before i proceed with the entry, i think it'll be better if i announce this first.

taraaaaaaaaaaaa !

the new kak Leen.

alhamdulillah, sampai dah seru, makin terang jalan hidupnya.

okay okay. dont ask when will my time be.

it will come, not now.

haha. stress betol.

anyway kak leen, youre getting cuter and cuter.

macam mane la ya tak laku laku? hahhaa.

love you sissy, eh salah. LVoe you sissy !

nothing last forever

i know, it may look a bit cranky or whatever.

but just listen to the lyrics, will you?

readers, feel this with me.

not the typical Kosmo paper

hey guys, i'm back.

miss me? i know you do. haha

anyway, demam semakin pulih. alhamdulillah. just batuk dengan selsema ni je yang tak hilang hilang. semalam, pegi jugak ke clinic. ye ye, baru nak pegi clinic. setelah sekian lame kan.

mengadu la kat doctor, cakap badan sakit la, demam malam je la ape semua. doctor pon check check bagai, and katanya tonsil bengkak sesangat. tu yang sampai sengal sengal satu badan ape semua.

fuyh. lega je dengar doctor kata macam tu. kalau tidak kan, diaorang ni cakap maybe sebab dengue la, H1N1 la. sumpah cuak gile. tu yang pegi clinic jugak tu. hehe.

and now, bile batuk sakit gile dkt bahagian atas perot tapi bawah boobies. faham tak? rasenye tu part diaphragm kite kan? betol tak budak bio? hahah. i dunno la. i tak amik bio. i ambik physic dgn chemy je :D

baiklah, kite teros kan dengan cerita kite ye adik adik, anak anak, pok cik mok cik sekalian (:

okay, first. tengok ni.

okay, ni paper Kosmo. so?

haha. celah kangkang mane la kan aku bace paper. well, okay la. bace jugak la. kadang kadang. kire tade la katak bawah tempurung sangat.

but there is something bout this paper, something huge and, woah.

presenting to you,

tara !

its Kobain yaawwww. how coool is that !

almost one full page you know. gillleeeeh ah kobain. lasaaat weyyy. tak sangkkeeee. diam diam ubi makin empuk. hahahaha.

mainly the article is bout him la kan, like duh. he wanted to be a pilot but at the same time, dancing is his passion. bla bla bla bla. macam macam la.

if you guys dont have the paper, nevermind, read it online.

click here for online Kosmo.

see, seeeeee.

hahahaha. habis semua i snap youuu. demam demam pon, gigih cari camera bagai. hahaha.

anyway, good luck kobain in whatever youre doing. with the right intention, great practices, unstoppable supports and high strength, i know you can get whatever you want :)

fuyh. makin berjaya kawan kawan semua ye. yang model model, yang menari menari, yang menyanyi menyanyi, yang photographer lagi.

i'm so proud of you guys :)

sorry, I couldnt think of any title for this post

hey people :)

things were really tough lately. lotsa things been goin on, which I find it very hard to explain.

have you guys ever got stuck in a position where,

you wanted to explain what things actually been going on with you but when you do, people will take it the other way round, its either because they dont really understands you or, they just dont want to put themselves in your position.

or

you decided to not explain anything, keeping your mouth shut because you know silence speaks louder than words, but the more silence you are, you're just gonna be much more abandoned and feel more heartache and feels like there air trapped inside your lungs or heart, that makes you feel like as if you were suffocated.

have you?

well, lets see the consequences of it.

if you do decide to explain what is actually wrong with yourself, theres can only be 2 MAJOR implications.

first.

Acceptance.

people will actually accept your explanation and feel sorry or wanted to help you out by giving you advices or even a support. they will try to picture themselves as in your positions, imagine what you actually been through, a rational thinking from a soundmind person will never judge or take side. a great person will make you feel relieved, feels like youre not actually on your own, there are people that will always be there with you.

well, theres always gonna be a pros and conts in every issues.

and as for this, the person that is in the situation may thought that the person really accept the explanation, and really make him/her feel better. but as the feelings grow in the hearts, there will be at times that the other person will feel boring of it, because they keep talking about that issue, keep mentioning it. it will become worse if the emotions are uncontrollable, it could lead to anger, sadness, joy. any emotions.

from here, it could lead to another implications.

Rejections.

the person may reject or refuse to accept the explanations. this could happen if

; the person is under influenced

; the person already has its own perceptions

; the explanations are not logic. duuhh?

when you are under influenced, you will find yourself hard to believe anything else because you already heard the story by other person, before the person itself.

and this can lead into making your own perceptions. when you heard stories, you'll tend to judge or make your own theory about it, and you will thought that you are right, or even BINGO when your theory is similar with other person, not the one with the solutions.

when this happen, when the person in the positions try to explain, automatically you will find it hard to believe or even accept because you have set your brain to stuck with the perceptions or theory of your own.

your perceptions or theory usually will revolve around

; envy

; desperate/seeking for attention

; cultural shock

OKAY LA, MESTI KORANG PELIK KAN. APE BENDE LA AKU BEBEL NI.

HAHA.

okay fine. lets just be frank.

I'm in that position. yes, I'm stuck between these two solutions.

I dont know what should I do.

I have this one feeling, this one thought in myself that I dont think I can ever explain to them, because they'll never understand.

I've tried once, and trust me. the results are not like what I expected.

so, I remain silence.

*bunyi cengkerik*

I'm not even sure what I'm doing is right or not, cause I dont know what else to do.

yes, yes, I know. I could just like knocked it all off, ignore it, avoid it, and just move on.

but hey, sooner or later you're gonna get sick of it.

I dont wanna get myself blown off by that, lets just stop or control while it can.

I always said that I'm not afraid, dont even wanna bother when people bullshitting, when people bitching, or when people crap bout me.

as long as I have my True friends, my best friend, my friends that I know that no matter what will always be there with me, through bad or worse,

I will hold on, I will strive on.

but at this moment, I'm torn.

lotsa things been goin on lately, and it doesnt convince me, it makes me even worried.

and I know this entry will means something for a couple of friends,

yes, I really know that.

but, I just want You and You to know that I'm sad.

bukan Sentap, bukan Emo.

tapi Sedih, rasa Terkilan, rasa Kecik Hati.

and now its up to You and You to sum up this entry.

is it and explanation from me

is it a way of me seeking for attentions

or, is it a way of me complicates thing.

and I do know, maybe You and You wont be bother much about this because

as usual, You and You have other things to think off or, other things to worried off.

but at this moment, I'm just asking

just a little bit, just a tiny pieces of your

heart ; to feel me this time

and, brain ; to think of me for a while.

in your little seconds of you everyday life.

can You and You?

anyway,

Wish Me Luck For My Final Exams !

You and You,

I love You Both :)

too random

they thought we're together but the real truth, we're not even close.

puas dah fikir on what to update today. ade je bende bende yang bule cite but ended up I decided that maybe I'll update about all of those later.

lets talk something routine, or random.

something like 'hey, I've thought of that but forgot to talk bout it'.

for example, pernah tak rase yang kite macam so close with someone, so close until we trust them with our deepest secret, eventho we're just known that person for like, what, a month?

or

sometimes kite rase kite dh treat orang sehabis baik but sebenarnye, ade je bende yang tak betol pada mata dia

or

kite rase bile bawak kereta its important to give signals but sebenarnye bile kite nampak orng bagi signal and nak masuk lane kite, we're gonna be soo greedy. takkan nak bg dia masuk lane kite jugak, dan dan tu teros drive laju.

hehe. okay, yang last tu mcm luahan perasaan sikit.

tadi pon borak borak dgn mak, dgn kak leen, pasal budak budak ni. pasal Aiman dgn Yana. Aiman yg sekarang dh 7 tahun and prasan dia mcm dh pandai dah bace al-Fatihah. tapayah nak dibetol kan ape lagi dah.

macam Yana yang mmg sangat sangat degil. orng suro ape pon dia tanak buat, dia tak tataw ape tiu erti menunggu,. if she want something, she want it NOW.

if she dont know how to do something, she'll cry. if she dont know how to something pon, she'll cry.

macam tadi, kak leen ajar dia main this one makeover online game taw. kak leen had to tutor her all the time, nak pegang mouse macam mane, nk click kt mane.

then, bile kak leen stop kejap sbb nk dinner, Yana ended up click on something else, and she ended up crying of it. sebab ape? sebab dia tataw nak main.

and at that moment, me, kak leen and mak were all agreed at one thing.

its a genetic.

do you know that if I want something, and I know I could have it but because of other simple things that I cannot handle by myself, I will cry.

like macam tadi, I cannot online using my Vaio eventho the wifi mmg dh connect, tp bile bkk Chrome, it said tht tade internet connection. so, I tried to fix that but sampai kesudah, lansung tak bule.

so, I cried. well, not really cried, just meleleh lah. heeee

and do you know that kak leen dont play games. me and kak leen, both of us dont play games like Pacman or any Harry Potter games kat playstation ke, or ape2 game yg ade win and lose.

we're gonna cry taw.

I still remember this one time when PS 1 was so in, baba bought that for me and I was playing Harry Potter punye game taw, and then sampai kt this one stage, I cannot reached to the next level sbb I dont know how to play with it.

end up, I cried. Memy yg tolong main kan sampai I reached the next level. heeee

so, its normal la kan kalau Yana nangis nangis gitu.

oh. kalau mak pulak, she cried when she's angry.

conclusion ; we all girls in this house like to cry :)

and korang penah tak rase yang you guys were really puas hati with you have now, until something happen, everything will turn the other way round.

I still remember when me and Ady were together, I mean not together as an item, together as in like just the two of us.

we both have friends but we're like really comfortable by hangin out just the two us. like goin to movies together, lepak mamak together, everything for just the two of us.

sometimes, in a day, 3-4 times we meet up. dgn call lagi, texting, YM, skype, you know, everything, you name it we have it.

we're like living in a world just the two of us.

and now, we're like in a group. i'm not saying is a bad thing but i'm saying sometimes I need time just by ourselves, you know just the two of us.

but as a friends, you know you that wouldnt happen. lagi lagi kalau dah rapat dengan semua kan. when everytime nak kluar just the two of us je pon, its gonna be like a bit awkward, like, eh, mane sipolan tu, oh, sipolan ni mane.

you guys get what I mean? haha.

what i'm saying is sometimes, changes are good. especially when you're friends like in a group, when something happen you want the whole group to know. why? because we feel like they need to know, they have to know, theyre our friends. kan?

tapi kadang kadang, macam biase la, dalam ramai ramai, sorang dua tu mesti ade yg rapat. like, me and ady. we're close because we've been hangin out together for so long, so many times.

then, when changes happen, when you start hangin out in a group, they'll be one or two people thats gonna feel left out.

honestly, sometimes I did feel that way. like when Ady can always have lunch with Dann like whenever they wanted while I cannot unless my parents are not at home.

or when Dann can always go to Pavy like at 4pm with random people while I cant cause baba forbid me.

or when they can always go karaoke or movies on weekdays cause its much cheaper than weekends, while the only days i can go out is on weekend which is when everything will be a bit pricy.

sometimes, you just gotta think positive. like, hey, its okay. they all can go out today, for like 4 hours but when it comes to weekend, I can go out like for 8hours straight.

or when they go out for lunch together like everyday, then I can go out lunch wth them in just a day, but still have the same topic that they discussed.

tapi, kadang kadang terasa jugak kan when all of these time you were so close with someone, but not until someone new coming in and the other person feels much much more comfortable talking all of the stuff wth that new person.
before this, if something happen, you'll be the first one to know but not anymore. and at that point, you're gonna feel replace, feel so left out, feels unwanted.

but all of the sudden, cute things happen and that magically makes you feel okay in no time.

oh. do you guys agree on the facts that small things that matters the most

i mean, come on la kan. bende remeh mcm ni la yg bule strengthen kan a relationship. like you know, katekan lah between daddy and his daughter, like me and baba. eventho I'm 20, baba sometimes did kiss me on cheek, like this morning, mase nk pegi college. he's like sayin, 'ciom baba, dh lame tak ciom kan'. you knw, bnd yg mcm like 'alaa, perlu ke?'

or, like me and mak. sometimes when she's at dapur, masak, i'll go to her, borak borak then i kissed her on the cheek. you know, just like nak she knows,'hey mak, ilove you'.

or or, you're like jalan jalan, and you saw this one thing that you really reminds of your friend, ape la salahnye, like grab a phone and call and like say 'hey, aku jalan kt Tangs ni, tenampak ade notebook cantik, kalau kau tengok, mesti kau suke, tu yg aku teringat kt kau'.

these kinda things la for me, matters the most.

sometimes, like whenever I went out with Alia, helped her to find things that she wanted, but shes like being cranky ke ape ke kan, then she'll gonna like held my hand and say 'hey, thanks okay, for teman, evn tho i'm a bit cranky, i love you'.

kite yg dgr ni pon teros mcm, haaaa, sedab sikit hati.

kalau mcm me and ady, sometimes we go out, i'll tend to be such a spoiled brat, like papi, this and that, can you do this, can you do that, but in the end, ape la salahnye like sayin 'thanks papi for the day'.

you dont have to buy something expensive or do something big to show your love, a simple thoughts that matters the most.

now, all you guys out there, when was the last time you guys kiss your mom randomly?

when was the last time you said thank you to your friend for willingly to YM with you cause youre bored?

or when was your last time you buy JCo donuts for your classmate cause they always sign for your attendance?

hope you guys really understand what I'm trying to say here.

if korang bace gitu je, it may means nothing. but if korang bace and try to picture what i'm trying to say here, you guys will get the hints.

anwyay, talk to you guys soon.

ciao !

p/s : oh, hey readers. thanks for reading okay.

a very welcome entry

hey baby boo :)

finally, I am back on track. insyallah, kalau tade aral melintang, hilang la sampah sarap, habuk dan segala nya kt rumah online saya ini. heeee.

well, anyway. sedih je tgk entries for February. ade 4 je? goooosh. mmg sangat la a history okay. usually, bepuluh kan entry in a month, sehari tu 4-5 entry adoo, ni kau, 4 je.

takpe la, janji adoooo.

so, disebabkan dah lame sangat tak blog, and takkan la aku nak cerita every single thing that happen to me like in a day or in a week.

cerita dah basi la nok, so kite reveal mane mane yg mcm ala ala meletszz je okay. kalau yg karat karat story, no need to tell lah.

so, as a start. ehem ehem.

saya disini ingin memperkenal kan orang baru dalam keluarga saya.

orang yg bakal meneruskan generasi kami

orang yg bakal meneruskan warisan keluarga kami

Adieb Uzaer Bin Hayme

selamat dilahirkan di Hospital Al-Islam (formerly known as Hosp Kg. Baru) on the February of 8th, 2010.

he is a very healthy baby, a cute baby, a blessed baby.

Adieb, be prepared to grow up with us okay (:

p/s : more to come babey !

fak.

just noticed this

full layout

crop a bit. noticed anything extraordinary?

okay. see this.

omgwtfbbq

WOYY. APE CITE NI??

ada orang nak sabo ke hape neyyy??

eff la weyy. eerrrghh !

dan sebenarnya,

sebenarnya, ade je bende yang nak di blog kan.

but I refused to do so.

because, all of the entry will be a bit emo.

its not worth to pour your hearts out when you know you wont get any response.

because, they just dont care.

and its just not worth it if I keep on telling the truth, if I keep on being honest.

cause they just dont care.

they dont. not anymore.

and to you, you and you.

.............................................

let me just keep it by myself.

p/s : haaa, kn dh jadi entry emo. me dowan to hef entri laike this. dowan dowan.

counting starts now

hello people *wide smile face

its Monday and for once, I mean until now, I dont have any Monday blues

goood thing kan.

anyway, 3 days to go until..

not gonna tell youuuu =D

surprise surprise !

p.s : those that already knew, especially Syasya, Luqman, kak Leen and DANANG JOYO PRAKOSO, keep your mouth shut *lovesss

~lalalalala

uwww, you guys want some hints?

naaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah !

ciao !

effyu

am I the only one that going thru disappointment ?

guess my time of happiness is not ready to accept me.

thanks God, I know you love me more. always do.

FML

when you thought you done everything you could, in the end you gonna realize that it was nothing.

disappointment is a big feeling and I am going through that.

dont ask me what wrong, I dont wanna talk about it.

I cant wait until Dec 17th.

and yea, new semester. new changes.

baba, ayah, abah, papa, father, appa, walid, bapa, dad

its a true story.

dont get me wrong, i'm not blaming anyone or whatsoever. its just my two cents of thoughts.

24yrs of not knowing his own father.

and he is 24 years old now. can you imagine, his whole entire life of not seeing his father. he knows the existence of his father, he tried so hard looking for his father.

kite merancang, tetapi tuhan yang menentukan segalanya.

bukan rezeki dia utk jmp his father at the age of 2 yrs old, 18 yrs old. but it is his destiny to finally meet with his father at the age of 24 yrs old.

and jumpe pon bkn dgn usaha dia, ttp dgn bantuan orang lain.

his father left him when he was only 4months old. after his parents divorced, he never ever see his father anymore.

dah la tapenah jumpe, cari merata pon tak jumpe jgk. but the most saddest part was when theres a rumors said that his father was already died.

astaghfirullah.

tp, tuhan maha kaya.

mcm tak sangke kan, if i were him, I dont know what to say, I dont know what to do.

imagine, 24yrs of knowing who is our father, and tetibe je dpt phone call, said that someone found our father.

marah, menyampah, benci, excited, bersyukur. goooosh. confuseee sgt kan.

tears were all dropped, but no sad stories. sume orang mcm besyukur sgt kan, sbb dh jmp and whatsoever.

mybe the parents can not be together anymore, but that okay. as long as the son knows the father, thats far more than enough.

but as for me and kak leeen, hehhe. kitorang kalau sedih mmg nangis tak berenti dah. so, we ended up enjoyed ourselves. tanak layan kan feeling tu, kang mcm kitorang plak yg tak penah jmp bapak. hahah. LOLdh feel dh tu, tapi mantain je. haha

anyway, tak kire mcm mane burok pon ayah kite, remember. he is still our father.

even if he's a thieves, perverts, rapist, burok perangai mcm mane pon. we have to respect him as our father.

jangan jadi anak durhaka okayy.

and yes baba, sometimes you REALLY get on my nerves and I know I get your nerves too but, ya sayang baba jugak okayyy.

*baba, dh year end sale. sooooo, ehem ehem*

not now

I dont know where to start.

people, I'm on crisis. its not really about me but maybe I was being too in control of it.

guess things just turn out in a different way.

do support me.

I need cheer up sentence. I need to know that no matter what happen to me, no matter how bad I am, there will always be someone that will stick with me.

anybody?

and to you,

I just cant believe things will turn out this way. I am sorry for everything that I've done to you, and yes I do forgive you.

but things wont be the same anymore, never. you dissappoint me so much. guess whatever that I did to you was such a waste.

i'm sorry, but its the end.

and yes, I hate you.

readers, when I find the perfect words to express how I feel now.

I promise I will make a full sentence of it.

just, not now okay.

no more.

hey people.

I dont know what to blog anymore. everything seems to be so static right now.

except for my studies. i'm running errands with the assignments and final project. not to mention the final exams. i'm counting down to the actual date. guess the adrenalines that rushes to my veins seems to be..

okay, i'm lost for words.

how I wish I could write whatever I want in my blog. like I used to.

but not anymore. whatever I write now, I have to think about the other party. I dont want my words to threaten them. I dont want my words to be misunderstanding.

I do know what I write now seems to be so confused.

I'm trying to let go all of my feeling with words, but I couldnt.

have you ever been in a position where you lost for words ?

I'm in that situation right now. words seems to be worthless and actions are such an ignorance.

big question now is, why bother?

we bother because we care, we bother because we love, we bother because we missing it.

we lose it.

today I found out two of my friends broke up with their partners.

ones was almost 2 years together, broken up because they think they should.

the other one had been together for more than 2 years, broken up because their parents are not okay with their relationship.

when I heard that, I did feel sorry for them, I felt sympathize for them.

but somehow, it doesnt touch my heart like it supposed to be. and I dont know why.

maybe because I've lost my interest in love

or, I had forgotten how does it feels to be in love.

this is the part where I lost my words. seriously.

call me jealous, call me desperate, call me annoying, call me pathetic.

is it so hard to maintain what you already have?

is it that easy for you to just change everything you had for years just for the sake of what you gain in just 2 days of your lives?

why is it so hard for people to keep their words?

I said words, not promises.

dont say it if you dont mean it. if you care, act like you are.

if you have feelings, show it. dont hide it. dont keep it.

i've had enough dissapointment with myself.

dont dissapoint me with yours, not anymore.

sorry. i know this is all confusing. i really wish I could let everything out.

but I couldnt, I just couldnt.

not anymore.

*eyes closed

she did it again !

cant wait 'till I get thru this phase cause its killing me

- Energy, Keri Hilson

todayy, as in Sept 17th, 2009, as in a day left to my birthday, as in a day left 'till I am officially 19,

I received a package from United State of America.

yup, USA

*its the party in the USA, singing to Miley's*

here it is

to be brutally honest, I WAS SO DEM SCARED !

like all of a sudden, theres a package from you, and its from USA. I tried to remember whether I ordered anything via online, but no. I never bought anything from USA. goooosh.

I dont want to open the package cause I thought it might be a bomb or drugs or something. you know it can be a trap or something.

ntah ntah bile bukak package tu, US people bule detect ke, then tetibe dtg unwanted people thru helicopter, crashed my house.

haaaaaaa, betapa berimaginasi nye kan. hahahahaha. serious weyyy, tak tipuuuu. hahaha

after dh discuss dgn baba sume, cheeee. baba pon kene skali. haha. baba ckp bukak je la, tade ape nye kott. so, I decided to bukak laa.

tu pon siap bukak jauh jauh, kalau bomb, aku meletop sorang je lah. hahaha. takot lg ni, kalau drugs, jgn smpai kene tangan, evidence nnt sume tuu. hahha.

when I opened it, this is what I get

huh.

the moment I saw it I was like, sapeeee niiii. as far as I know, only Bill and Mariah stays in US, well, once in a while. I have nobody from US that know me.

I was soo blur.

I read on the notes

and its from Alia, aaaawwwwwww ;(

tears falling down when I read the first sentence. I cried and cried and cried. I was so so so shocked !

I didnt expect this at all. last year she called me direct from Aussie, a day before jugak *refer here* and this year, a gift pulak, a day before jugeee.

gooooosh * tearsss

the box looks sooo cute. it took a while to act open it. comel sgt !

a necklace with shotgun look pendant

alaaaaaaa, comel nyeeeeeeeeeeeee ;(

waaaah, I cant stop crying. sumpah terharu sangat sangat sangat.

Ezan Alia, my dearest greatest bestest friend ever,

we have known each other since we're 7 years old, and now we're 19 yo. its been the awesome 12 years together with you sayang. despite everything that happen, you never stop being such a true friend to me, you're like my sister okayy. goosh, I love you 'till death hunnayh. theres nothing, nothing can ever replaced you.

even though you send me a gift all the way from US or Aussie or wherever you are, all I ever wanted was you to be here with me. its been ages since the last time we celebrate together. I really miss you, I really really do. I really cant wait until you get back here okay.

awwww, I have to stop now. tears falling like a hurricane. hahaha.

Alia, thanks so so much, I love you okayyy

*hugsss and kisssessss, A LOT !

and, to Muhammad Adli BinAdzmi a.k.a Papi,

sejak bileeeee pandai simpan rahsiee sumee haaaaaa. oooowwwwww. you got me this time okayy.

yeaaa. Alia complot with him okay. no wonder la few weeks ago, Ady asked for my addres, he said his mom wanted to send a kad raya. I was like, erk. then he said his mom mintak addres few of his other friends too. I wasnt suspicious pon, so bgi je la.

rupenyeee, Alia asked for it. they been contacting each other thru facebook. pandai betol kan.

anyway, thank a lot guysssss !

thanks Alia, I looooove you.

fuuyh, this really made my dayy :D

in-advance

*listening to Airto- Move On, in YouTube.com*

my birthday is getting nearer.

for this year, I just hope that my birthday wont be as empty as it was last year. still remember?

here's the link.

as usual, almost every year I will get my advance birthday present.

and for this year, I only asked for a cupcakes stand. yeaaa, only that. I dont want anything else. actually I do, but lets skip that part. hahaa.

so on last Tuesday, Baba told me to drive to Damansara, together with him and mak. he said he had appointment with his client, dia malas nak drive kan, so I had to lah.

before the appointment, he told me to drive straight away to my favorite bakery stuff shop, the ICCA. wooohoooo, I smell presents !

after such a looong time wasted in the shop, we went home with this

big bag full of stuff

see thosee

lets see what they got for me :)

the cupcakes stand. this is what I asked for. one stand can hold 13cupcakes, baba bought 2 stands.

those who are interested, can go there, there's also other 2 designs with different prize. mine is around rm70 each.

2 cakes pan and a cake turn table. I wanna try bake cakes pulak

tools box so I can put all my stuff in there.

at first baba wanted to buy the professional tool box, which consist of almost everything you ever wanted as a cupcakes maker, but I refused. it was very very costly and I'm not a pro. I dont need most of the stuffs in there.

then he decided to bought this one toolbox with few stuff in there. theres few Wilton's color, nozzles, step by step book. I refused on that too cause the box is blue and the prize is around rm200 pluss I think.

so, I just setlle up with this maroon box, its empty and the prize is around rm100 plus.

before

after, yups, theres few of my stuffs

colors, flavors, sprinkles etc.

fuuuyh. I am sooo happy with this. really really happy.

thanks baba and mak, you're the best !

fare thee well Bambi

Bambi's last bath.

so long Bambi. I am so so so so sooo gonna miss you much.

you are the first car that I drove, you are the first car that I own.

Bambi, I lovee youu.

I reallllly wish I could keep you forever, I really do.

haih.

al-fatihah..

bisikkan doaku, dalam butiran tasbih

- Ketika Cinta Bertasbih, Melly Goeslow

its was only our first Ramadhan, but to some people, it was the last Ramadhan.

takziah diucapkan kpd Ahmad Aq'Grabin dan keluarga di atas kehilangan abangnya.

arwah pergi ke rahmatullah, Jumaat malam *if I'm not mistaken*, due to H1N1. he was admitted to hospital on Thursday.

Jenazah telah selamat dikebumikan selepas Zohor, pada hari Sabtu.

moga rohnya dicucuri rahmat dan ditempatkan di kalangan orang orang yang beriman.

ingat, Allah lebih sayang kan dirinya dri kita.

to Kobain, be strong okay. you kn hustler, you kan diva, you know you can go thru this kan.

*hugss