sorry, I couldnt think of any title for this post

hey people :)

things were really tough lately. lotsa things been goin on, which I find it very hard to explain.

have you guys ever got stuck in a position where,

you wanted to explain what things actually been going on with you but when you do, people will take it the other way round, its either because they dont really understands you or, they just dont want to put themselves in your position.

or

you decided to not explain anything, keeping your mouth shut because you know silence speaks louder than words, but the more silence you are, you're just gonna be much more abandoned and feel more heartache and feels like there air trapped inside your lungs or heart, that makes you feel like as if you were suffocated.

have you?

well, lets see the consequences of it.

if you do decide to explain what is actually wrong with yourself, theres can only be 2 MAJOR implications.

first.

Acceptance.

people will actually accept your explanation and feel sorry or wanted to help you out by giving you advices or even a support. they will try to picture themselves as in your positions, imagine what you actually been through, a rational thinking from a soundmind person will never judge or take side. a great person will make you feel relieved, feels like youre not actually on your own, there are people that will always be there with you.

well, theres always gonna be a pros and conts in every issues.

and as for this, the person that is in the situation may thought that the person really accept the explanation, and really make him/her feel better. but as the feelings grow in the hearts, there will be at times that the other person will feel boring of it, because they keep talking about that issue, keep mentioning it. it will become worse if the emotions are uncontrollable, it could lead to anger, sadness, joy. any emotions.

from here, it could lead to another implications.

Rejections.

the person may reject or refuse to accept the explanations. this could happen if

; the person is under influenced

; the person already has its own perceptions

; the explanations are not logic. duuhh?

when you are under influenced, you will find yourself hard to believe anything else because you already heard the story by other person, before the person itself.

and this can lead into making your own perceptions. when you heard stories, you'll tend to judge or make your own theory about it, and you will thought that you are right, or even BINGO when your theory is similar with other person, not the one with the solutions.

when this happen, when the person in the positions try to explain, automatically you will find it hard to believe or even accept because you have set your brain to stuck with the perceptions or theory of your own.

your perceptions or theory usually will revolve around

; envy

; desperate/seeking for attention

; cultural shock

OKAY LA, MESTI KORANG PELIK KAN. APE BENDE LA AKU BEBEL NI.

HAHA.

okay fine. lets just be frank.

I'm in that position. yes, I'm stuck between these two solutions.

I dont know what should I do.

I have this one feeling, this one thought in myself that I dont think I can ever explain to them, because they'll never understand.

I've tried once, and trust me. the results are not like what I expected.

so, I remain silence.

*bunyi cengkerik*

I'm not even sure what I'm doing is right or not, cause I dont know what else to do.

yes, yes, I know. I could just like knocked it all off, ignore it, avoid it, and just move on.

but hey, sooner or later you're gonna get sick of it.

I dont wanna get myself blown off by that, lets just stop or control while it can.

I always said that I'm not afraid, dont even wanna bother when people bullshitting, when people bitching, or when people crap bout me.

as long as I have my True friends, my best friend, my friends that I know that no matter what will always be there with me, through bad or worse,

I will hold on, I will strive on.

but at this moment, I'm torn.

lotsa things been goin on lately, and it doesnt convince me, it makes me even worried.

and I know this entry will means something for a couple of friends,

yes, I really know that.

but, I just want You and You to know that I'm sad.

bukan Sentap, bukan Emo.

tapi Sedih, rasa Terkilan, rasa Kecik Hati.

and now its up to You and You to sum up this entry.

is it and explanation from me

is it a way of me seeking for attentions

or, is it a way of me complicates thing.

and I do know, maybe You and You wont be bother much about this because

as usual, You and You have other things to think off or, other things to worried off.

but at this moment, I'm just asking

just a little bit, just a tiny pieces of your

heart ; to feel me this time

and, brain ; to think of me for a while.

in your little seconds of you everyday life.

can You and You?

anyway,

Wish Me Luck For My Final Exams !

You and You,

I love You Both :)