September 7, 2008

big question

blabbed by Amira Zafirah at 9/07/2008 12:13:00 PM

that stupid question had been bugging me since I wrote in this blog about the Friday incident. DEMIT.

Its not that I dont want to answer, its not that I dont know the answer. Its just that, what is the point of me telling them my answer if they dont understand how exactly I felt. Its hard to explain. You need to feel it by yourself, then only you know why.

Okay, I give it a try. If my answer here still blurring your head away, dont ever try to ask me again. The thing that you will hear from my mouth its my higher voice tone and ignoring you for at least a day. so, think wisely before you do.

Imagine this, the last time I saw him was on January, the last time I heard his voice was on April. And now its already September.
How would you feel, if someone you love like how you love your life, left you without saying goodbye, abandoned you with unclear reason, ignoring you in just a blink of an eye? How would you feel if the closest person that you know in your entire life, the person that you trust most with your secrets, the person that promise that you are his responsibility, his everythings in his life just left you because you of one silly mistakes? Can you tell me, how would it feel?
Yes, I know there are other people that had gone far more worse than me, but now, we are talking about ME, not them.

Seeing him for the first time since 8 months ago, was truly shocked me. I cried because I was shocked. I cried because I hate the way he looked at me. I cried because he ignored me. I cried because I was too happy. I cried because finally I saw him. Do you know how much I missed him? Do you have any idea? Its not that, I saw him, I like him then I asked someone to introduce him to me, and tadaaaa. We're couple. NO. Eventhough I've knowed him since I was 13 years old, but I started to actually closed with him when I was 16 years old. We're bestfriends ! We shared everything together, asked him my bra size, surely he know ! We were so closed together, and when we were 17 years old, then he asked me to take it to another level. I'm shocked, and worried, but still, I said yes, because hey, what could go wrong. right?

I cried because of all this reason. My emotion was all mixed up, all in one time. This is all I can explain. If you still find yourself blur, not understand a thing about it, just set your brain that all of this was never happen.

Because, I do set my brain with that reason.

Friday, Sept 5th, 2008.
I didnt went to Bazaar Ramadhan Putrajaya and I didnt saw him.
I was at the hostel all the time with my collegemates, study for my test.


8 extra blabbing on "big question"

sepet a.k.a zack_u on September 7, 2008 at 2:01 PM said...

sabar ye mira....
laki ni kadang2 mmg pelik sket....
dorang tau pmpn ni tabah sket..
2 la pasal soka2 nk tinggalkan kite..
tp dont wori...
sume ade hikmah....
hope mira dpt yg lg bgos dr dia k..
amin.... :)

Amira Zafirah on September 7, 2008 at 4:24 PM said...

ahaha. thanx zack-u. tu lah. takpe lah. kite muda lg :D

dann on September 8, 2008 at 4:36 AM said...

mak kan muda lagi! dont worry ah.HAHA
ur FRIENDS will always be with u la :)
apa lagi dah ada anak ayam baru kan
waaaaaah bertambah maju bisnes mak hayam kite ni

lily lotus on September 8, 2008 at 11:42 AM said...

stay calm dear ;)
dugaan bln poser ni..
just stay happy n ignore all
the nonsense n crappy things!

si kecik on September 8, 2008 at 4:01 PM said...

sabar mira..
one day he'll regret it..
mungkin dia bukan yang terbaik untuk mira..
stay strong..

Amira Zafirah on September 8, 2008 at 8:08 PM said...

dann : ahha. itu lah. bisnes mak ni mcm dh semakin maju je taw. ank ikan mak yg bru tuuh, waah. bule mndtgkn keuntungan yg begitu tnggi skali nyah :D

lily : thanx kak lily itu lah, kite chill saje lah :)

kecik : thanx kecik. yup. hrp2 sgt one day he regret or at least realized he lose somthing big. anyway, thanx sgt taw :))

Anonymous said...

ank ikan bru??jgn maen2 dgn dye duh...dye mmbe aku..bhahaha..tbe2..owh bbe..ily..

Fiqafiqon on September 12, 2008 at 6:39 PM said...

sabau je mira sayang. sumpah i faham you. tak salah if you nanges pun . bukan selalu. u're though since you're not with him anymore, but hey skali skala jumpa, mesti terkejut. alaa, biasala GIRLSS ! hahaha. ily mira

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