advance present

my 18th birthday is in 2 weeks, but I already received my advance present :) SWATCH watch, which I've been aiming for such a long time.
thanx Baba ! <333

frankly, I'm not excited at all about my birthday. Its my 18th, it should excite me. right?
but I'm not, No, I'm just not.
because,
I know Its gonna be different, not like the previous birthday anymore.
different environment, different feeling, different PEOPLE

Dear God,

eventhough my birthday this year is not as complete as the previous year, but still, I'm hopping you will complete my whole entire life with your blessing, complete my life with your lights that will always shine on me, complete my life by giving me strength to cope with every situation that I will face in the future.
and, protect my family from any harmful situation and bless them with your hidayah,
all of my wonderful friends, old or new, who always be there for me, thru good or bad, please protect them my dear God, bless them with your full blessing.
and also, protect my dearest friends from any disaster, protect Ezan Alia, she's far away from her family, always protect her from any accidents and guide her to good life, Chin Ai Lin, give her strength to live her live, make her believe that she's not worthless, make her realize that she just need some guidance to success, Nabihah Adilah, protect her, secure her, save her from any bad intentions from other people, glow her some of your lights so she can know whats really right or wrong, who loves her because of her insight not from her outsight, Khairul Anuar, always protect him from any misfortune, let him know that theres more to come, let him know that what he have now wont promise him a great life in the future.
and lastly, Abdul Qayyum, protect, save, blessed and love him for me. protect him from saying something that he will regret in his whole live, save him from any harmful, any misfortune, and blessed him with your hidayah, as I'm not with him anymore, can you please make him remember all the things I've told him, make him be very patient and understand why is his parents being a little harsh on him.
And God, you can take me away from them, but to them, can you please dont take the all the memories that they have with me? Please, that is all I'm asking for now. Do take me away from them, maybe I'm not meant, not worth to be with them, but dont take the memories, that is the only thing that I left for them.
Baba and Mak, kak Leen and Memy, I LOVE YOU. fullstop. no elaboration needed

Love,
Amira