diwali

now oh so easily you'r over me, gone is love

- Shut Up and Let Me Go, the Ting Tings

heeeelooooooo rakyat jelata betaaaaa.

waaah, sikit punye cool ke kalau betol la sultan bg titah mcm tu. hahaha.

maaf lah kerana agak mengabaikan blog ku ini. sumpah aku busy okayy, busyyy nak matiiiiyyyy. nyampah nyampah, tak soookeeeeeeee. kalau bule sehari tu nak ade 30jam. baru cukop kott. haaaaa. seksaaaaaaaaa sgt.

dgn tests, final exam, final projects, assignments, maaak aih. gigih gigih tidaak je aku ni taw.

worriteee, lets get back to my storyyy.

friday kak leen cotiiii, dia suro aku bawak dia pgi jalan jalan. after loong and hard thinking, we decided head on to Pavy. haha. mane lagiii. KLCC tu rase mcm kecik nauuu, mid valley aku baru je lagi pgi, jadi ke pavy lah kami.

kak leeen soping. aku tak okayyy. nan adoooo pon. hahaha.

sesampai je, teros lunch kt food court. we both ate char kuey teow yg sedab ituuu and Yana makan mee baksoo. sedab la puloook. hahaha. makan makan makan, borak borak borak.

selesai segala, teroslah kami dgn mission therapy. shopping itu therapy katenyee. haha. gituu la kan.

minah baksoo :D

first stop was Charles & Keith. spend hoooooours in tht store. kak Leen find it very hard to choose which one did she like most. smpai yana dh tuka pampers, bwk dia pgi toilet ape sume pon, tak suda suda lagi. haha.

then, to forever 21 puleeee. sebelah kedai keee. haha. sini po n lameeeeeeeeeee jugak. kak leeen bule siap hilang lgi dlm tu. bule call2 tanye kt sections mane ape sumeee. haha. kak leen tu dh la kecik. dgn baju baju yg byk kat stu, dia teselit selit kt situ pon belom tentu aku perasan. hahaha.

kak leen bought that for me :)

ignore the price tag. haha

Yana poops lah pulak. ke toilet lah kami and we end up lepak dlm toilet. haha. ddok kt dpn cer min besar tu. make up make up, touch muke segale jadah. hahaha. dh mcm rumah sendiri la pulak.

dh mcm tayang bedazzle pulak ;p

cantik ke, burok ke, lain ke, mude ke, tua kee, dia tetap kakak akuuu and aku tetaaap adik dia. haha

then, kitorang jalan jalan jalan dan jalaaaaaaaaaaaaaan lagi.

kak leeen soping sakan okayyyyy. dh la beli jam fossil. nyampah. haha. nasib la aku tak bekenan sgt, kalau tak, dh la jeles pulak kan. hahah.

dan penat jalan ape sumeee, letih dan haus lah kami. lepak pulak kt starbucks. yana siap tido lagi. haha. borak borak, ngumpat ngumpat, kutok kutok, segaleeeeeeeeeeeeeeenye lah. haha.

syok woooo. rase mcm dosa menimbun nimbun gituuu. hahaha. tak snonoh betol. ngeheeehe

yana sebelom tidooo. haha

holorh holorh holorh. haha

pastu dh pkol bpe dh baba dh sibok tepon suro balik, dia kate nnt traffic jam. hekelleh. sibok betol la. kalau jam pon aku yg drive, ngadeee je taw. nyampah. grrrrr.

sesampai kitorng kt rumah, bkn nye baba dgn mak ade pon. sabauuuuu je lah. hahaha.

ppffttt. boredooom strikes !

broken this fragile thing now, and i cant pick up the pieces
i throw my words all around, but i cant give you the reason
i feel so brokin up and i give up
i just wanna tell you so you knowwww
here i gooo, scream my lung outs
and try to get to youuu, you are my only oneeeeeeeeeeee.

ngahahahahaha. i dunno whether the lyrics are right or wrong, but that was wht i sang lah kan. hehe.

anw, hello people.

i'm amira zafirah, owner of little voice and lv cupcakes.
just wanna tell you that i am now here at, bangi.
yes, bangi. the booooring bangi. pfftt.


i am boooooooooooored
booored
booored
booooooored :)

i dunno what to do. currently using my vaio and oya's berokband to online.
the line was so so lah, better than nothing tho.

my vaio is sooooo left behind. it didnt even have YM, hahaha. tak install lgi la kottt.
no google chrome, use firefox instead.
no itunes, only winamp. and the playlist is soooo la outdated.
thats why i'm listening to the old hit sooongs.

i'm booooored. gotta finish my slides for my presentation on business communication. eerrghh.
all on my own. cuak nook, cuaaaak !

thought of uploading a pic of me now using the webcam. but it looks suck.
so, skip thaaat.

goossh. what a crappy entry. blame the boredom.

beat of my heart, beat of my heart, beat of my heart, it tears us apart,
beat of my heart, beat of my heart, beat of my heart, now back to the start
away away, away awayyyyyy

eff

having a blog is not a trend.

having a blog is not the in-thing.

X : eh, kau ade blog?

Y : ade, kenape?

X : woo. aku pon nak ade blog lah. sbb sume orng ade doww

Y : buat ar dowwww. semua orng dh ade blog kott.

screw the last sentence. bullshit people says that.

jangan ada blog kalau tak faham blogging itu ape.

OH !

I'm stress bout this Saturday.

and the stress become much more worse because.

I cant record a new video of my lipsync, the webcam seems to be, NGOONG.

eerrrgghhh !

Playboy's Red Bunny

you and me, always and forever

- You and Me Always Up Forever, the Wannadies

I know I should have update about this on what, Sunday kott. but, I was hella busyyyy.

camnoo nyah camnooo??

Syaaa, sorry ye. nnt cuti I gigih kan diri untuk membelogsepot. haha.

as the title above, I know you guys already know bout it.

yadayadayadayadayadaya.

RedMummy won Prada handbag as being the Playboy bunny.

and I know the first thought of that. hahahaha.

dulik la korang dh bace ke blooom. yg fenting, mak nak cerita jugak hokeyyy. ini cerita version i pulak taaw. hahaha. efff

hari ku bermula dgn suara ibunda, pada pagi pagi buta, ntah lah pukol berapa. ku dengar suara nya bertanya tanya kepada ku yg masih lagi mamai mamai, ala sedar tak sedar gitu. soalan ibunda adalah berkenaan, erk.

mak : ya, camne nk gune selotape ni? *giving me the double sided tape*

mira : huh. adooyh.

ye, ibunda ku tidak mengetahui bagaimanakan untuk menggunakan double sided tape. barangkali dia masih mamai jugeee, same seperti diriku ini. ngehhe.

setelah memberinya tunjuk ajar dlm menggunakan pelekat dua hala tersebut, aku teros menyambung ekspedisi mimpi aku ituuu.

okay. bosaaaan. gelik !

sesedaaar je bangun nak dekat pukol 10 kott. rasenye lah. roger roger semua, siap siap segala jadah. off to Ady's and then Dann's puleeeee.

had my breakfast at Ady's. mak nye paksa datang rumah juge. waaah, malu malu. segan, segalenye lah. hahaha. nasib la makan sodaaaab, jadi agak lupe daratan disituuu. hahaha.

haaaaaaaaaa, before I forgot. Lola had gotten her first kiss okayyy.

faham tak? aiyooo.

aku telanggar kete depan aku doowww. haha. tapi langgar slow jeee. and turn up, kete tu kete kwn Chin. thank god tade ape2 okay. and bdk tu pon mcm okayy je. sbb mmg tade ape, calar pon nan adoooo.

yeeeeey, congrats Lola, you got your first kiss. haha. very romantic okayy, slowmooo gituuu. tade la mcm Tom, gelojoh, kemek kemek badan nyeeee. hahaha :D

after dah amik Dann, first stop was Low Yat Plaza. I had to fix my bedazzled trackball. due to my violence of usage, the trackball dah jam. tabule nk scroll bawah. so, kene la ganti baru.

melayang rm120. oh tidaaaaaaaaaaaaaaak. but, nevermind :)

pastu, Ady pulak cari barang nyeeee. jalan jalan jalan, Dann lapa. pgi la cari bende kasi dia pelahap. kitorng beli CuppaBon, and the boys gigih beli Auntie Anne's. hahaha. very dicky okayyy. woooopsieee !

done with that. off to Mid Valley. for the sake of akak merah tersayang aku ituuuuuuu. sanggup aku melepaskan open house rumah Wawa semateeeee nak vote kak red ni haaa.

bukan nye apee, dia siap berry ape sumeee, couple of times, pastu email pon ajak lagi. hati aku ni kan tulus mulus hancur bederai sikit, dh orng ajak ajak gituu, harus lah aku lemah kan.

lagi pon takpe laa, mak kate pgi buat open house asek makaaaan je, baik pgi mid valley, tade la makaaaan je. haha. well, she got a point !

sesampai Mid Valley, tengok tengok tade sape yg aku kenal lagi. jenjalan la kami, kehulu kehilir, browsing stuffs, cari cari baju nk pgi concert akak Bee's nanti kan. hehe. sesape tak fhm, buat bodo sudeyyyyh ;p

kak red kate eventnye start aroun 3.30-4.00pm gitu kott. aku pon dah lupe. tengok jam pon mcm dh nak ke time2 tu je en, pgi la kitorng ke center court.

sesampai je, tgk kak Ayu dah adeee, with few others. aku tak kenal sgt sape. peluk cium kak ayu, dikenalkan lah aku dgn lain lain nyeeeee. agak segan yeeeee. diaorng kenal aku, tp aku takenal diaorng. waaaah, kejam sgt okay. hampoooon kak, hampoooon. hahaha.

okay. brainfreeze. let pictureeeeeeeessssssss talk.

yea, I had plenty of pictureeeeeessssss to share with. hehe.

say hello to kak Ayu :)

before the arrival of red bunny

presenting Lyn Yusof, Amy, Yaty Beckam, Rose

hee, lengan aku tu rase nak dibagi 3 je taw. nyampah !

rm2,100

Jojo was the MC on the day.

Jojo's moment.

red leading the bunny walk. haha

the hump hump. haha

push upppppp. Ady's fav boobs. haha, she won the Burberry handbag.

imagine if kak red pakai camni. haha

horny face. haha

desperate much ;p

look at the guy's face. HAHA

stole this 2 pics from the red bunnies ;p

right after the voting session, we left. aku kene balik awal seyyy, harus la kaaan. curfew pkol 7pm gituuu. grrr. sabaaaau je la kan.

thanks Dann for the shotgun. haha. I didnt brought mine.

thanks papi and Dann too for being the photog on the day :)

anyway, I had a greaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat time with them. lagi lagi with my boys, Ady and Dann. it feels like ages since the last time we go out together kan. haha.

no, we're not together. serious talk. haha. believe it :)

the only picture of Danang on the day.

even though the end of the day was a bit suck, but I had fun. I mean, we had fun :)

*still hearing the same song over and over and over again*

Fath

Happy Birthday Fath :)

I dont know his full name.

I dont know him much.

I knew him from Dann

and I know that today is his birthday.

well, have a great birthday dude !

public embarrassment

beriyeeee riyee weyyyyy. sumpah!

HAHAHAHAHAHA.

gelak sepuas hatii, sbb aku pon dh penat nk gelak. tonggeng tonggeng aku. haha

aku pon tataw la kenapeeeee aku sukeeee sgt malukan diri aku kt blog sndri. making my own public embarrassment in my own public blog.

well, at least I'm not being hypocrite. this is just the way I am with my loved ones ;p

I blamed stress for this action.

this week have been such a hectic weeks. very very hectic one.. grrr.

and rimas.

rimas dgn soalan soalan yg orng tanye kt aku,

rimas dgn lecturer yg menggelupur nk buat test,

rimas dgn assignments yg betimbun

rimas dgn lecturer yg suke pentingkn diri sendiri

rimas dgn college yg sucksssss ituuu.

maka, disebabkan sebab sebab di atas, terhasil lah video yg sgt berkualiti itu.

ngaaaaaaaaahahahah :D

donor

berikan lah aku kekuatan untuk lupakan mu

- Biarlah, Nidji

yuhuuuuuuuu :D

haha. still amazed with me eh? haha. tekejot nau ke tengok aku dlm vlog tu. ngaahahaha. well, at least I know papi was truly amazed with it. he claimed that its like the other side of me.

well to be honest papi, its not the other side. you just missed that part of me. you just skip it to the last part of myself. heeee, tafaham leeeer tuuu ;p

anyway, enuff bout that. wait until my next song eh. hahha.

so, finally theres something to be blog today. something big, something that I was amazed with myself.

uuw, keyword of the day : amazed.

haha.

now, here it goes.

to all of my silent, loyal, royal readers, and stalkers too, of course.

I donated my blood today.

shock? I knowwww. even I was shocked with my ownself.

I know theres gonna be a blood donation campaign today at my college and I did thought of donating it. but it was just a silly thought, like hellooooo. me, blood. erk. wrong equation. haha.

I was so stressed today. with my english assignment and bedazzled being such a beyoootch. I reached college almost 3pm, went straight to the cafe and hang out with Dian. everything seems normal until Kadi came and said, "jom derma dara !".

I said, "jom, lets go. come come, joom !"

next thing I knew, I was filling up all the forms.

and then, there I am, with the blood people. wooopsie !

bile masuk je dlm this one room, we have to check on our body first. are you fit enough to donate and stuff. they asked you few question like

; are you sexually active?

; have you eaten?

; what time did you sleep last night?

; what time did you wake up?

and few other more.

everything checked. so, I am ready for the next room.

well, a picture worth a thousands word. so, I gave you 4 pictures. haha

scared face.

half full in just a few minutes

the needle was big, I dont dare to look at it.

almost full !

what happens after that was kinda sickening. I dont know if its just me, or maybe because my body has been aching due to the fitness and skill test, or maybe I was just being a total spoiled brat. hahhahaa.

segala nya sakit. blood flew out soooo fast. ubt bius yg dia cucuk tu pon tak hilang lagi kt tangan, the blood pack dh full. waaaaaah, sokeeee je kan darah aku kluar. cheh.

jadi, tangan pon kebas lah, rase mcm berat, rase mcm paralysed, tabule nk buat ape. nk lift up pon tak bule. nak drive, ya rabbi. nasib la power stering, kalau tidak, mau nye aku tepon baba suro amik kt college. hahaha.

oh. talking bout baba. he is actually against it. he was actually pissed off cause I donated my bloog. wth.

baba, hellooo??? i'm trying to do a good deeds here. I'm trying to be a good citizen here. goooosh.

mak, kak leen, memy and all of my other friends was super shocked when I told them. haha. ye laaa, tapenah ckp, tapenah ape, taw2 dh derma darah je. gheeee.

well, i'm proud of myself. I know theres a lot of people need blood and since my blood is type O, it wouldnt be a problem for any other type to accept it :)

oh. another sweeeeeet things happen to on the night.

I was indeed to go to a printing shop. I told Ady bout it and he said he can teman me. I was like, ooow. okay. goood. I reached home around 6pm. it was already late.

so, I did my stuff a bit, sort out everything that needs to be printed out. I tried to call Ady but he didnt pick up his phone. well, nevermind. maybe I should just go after maghrib.

but, as time goes by, Ady was nowhere to be found. call tak angkat, YM hilang. I was worried. dh lambat, almost 8pm. nnt kedai ttop mcm mne. I need those shit by tomorrow morning.

I ended up meratap hiba with Danang. and all of a sudden. Dann asked me to chill. he's on his way. I was like mothergayyyyyy, hell no. you are not coming here just for the sake of bringing me to a printing shop which is like just 5mins drive from my home.

but he insist. I couldnt drive actually, that why I need someone to drive for me. tangan sakit sangat la nak drive.

heyyy, i'm not being spoiled. 450ml of blood had been taken out from my right hand only in less that 10mins. my right hand's palm was yelloow, instead of red. grrrrr.

when Dann was on his way, Ady texted. he was sleeeping. no wondeeeeeer. I called him up and said Dann's is coming over.

Ady was speechless. haha. papi, you feel intimidated ke? the only thing that he said was, Dann is being a man. HAHAHA

I felt soooo bad to Dann. I shouldnt meratap hiba with him, I should just wait for another few minutes. then Ady gonna wakes up.

Ady felt bad too. haha. he said sorry couple of times. haha. aiyooo.

but in the end, all three of us went to the printing shop. hahaha. i like it this way. its been foreveeeer since the last time that the 3 of us were together.

so, in the end. I take this as a good thing. thanks papi for sleeping, thanks Dann for coming over and thanks to myself for not being patient enough.

if it wasnt for all of that, three of us wouldnt meet up :)

as for the ending part, enjoy this.

thank god the lebam doesnt look like a bite. hahha.

tega nian nya caramu, menyingkirkan diriku

- Sadis, Afgan

no more.

hey people.

I dont know what to blog anymore. everything seems to be so static right now.

except for my studies. i'm running errands with the assignments and final project. not to mention the final exams. i'm counting down to the actual date. guess the adrenalines that rushes to my veins seems to be..

okay, i'm lost for words.

how I wish I could write whatever I want in my blog. like I used to.

but not anymore. whatever I write now, I have to think about the other party. I dont want my words to threaten them. I dont want my words to be misunderstanding.

I do know what I write now seems to be so confused.

I'm trying to let go all of my feeling with words, but I couldnt.

have you ever been in a position where you lost for words ?

I'm in that situation right now. words seems to be worthless and actions are such an ignorance.

big question now is, why bother?

we bother because we care, we bother because we love, we bother because we missing it.

we lose it.

today I found out two of my friends broke up with their partners.

ones was almost 2 years together, broken up because they think they should.

the other one had been together for more than 2 years, broken up because their parents are not okay with their relationship.

when I heard that, I did feel sorry for them, I felt sympathize for them.

but somehow, it doesnt touch my heart like it supposed to be. and I dont know why.

maybe because I've lost my interest in love

or, I had forgotten how does it feels to be in love.

this is the part where I lost my words. seriously.

call me jealous, call me desperate, call me annoying, call me pathetic.

is it so hard to maintain what you already have?

is it that easy for you to just change everything you had for years just for the sake of what you gain in just 2 days of your lives?

why is it so hard for people to keep their words?

I said words, not promises.

dont say it if you dont mean it. if you care, act like you are.

if you have feelings, show it. dont hide it. dont keep it.

i've had enough dissapointment with myself.

dont dissapoint me with yours, not anymore.

sorry. i know this is all confusing. i really wish I could let everything out.

but I couldnt, I just couldnt.

not anymore.

*eyes closed