hello miss eighteen

Amira Zafirah

18 years old on 2008

student of KPTM, Bangi

*senyum, tanda lega *

photocatcher

dah lame tak buat kerja2 photocatcher kan.

for those who are new here, I'm not a photographer.

I'm a photocatcher.

hence, I dont use SLR, I'm not a pro and I dont have the actual skill of a photographer.

I'm amatuer :)

here some photos of my TiapHariSayang that I took,

:D

tiap hari sayang

yup, couple of hours ago, the cake that Chin brought was finally been cut.

I took the cake from the fridge.

I place it on the box.

I placed the candle, I lighted it.

I blowed it.

thanx to kak Leen, I forced her to snap some photos.

yup, unlike my last 2 years birthday, I had been surprised by them. They brought the cakes, they payed for what I ordered, they forced me to blow the candles, they busy snapping the photos.

Mereka suap saya makan :]

eh. kan dh promised myself jangan ingat semua tu, nanti emosi

* cracked smile *

blow Mira blow * God, bless me more with your blesssing *

Aiman ade, dia teman kan. yeay :))siapa kate kalau sedih mesti kene nangis, tade la. jadi gile mcm tu pun bule taaw :PLilyLotus, suke word ni kan, I captured this for you :)

Betul lah kate orang, everything mesti ade Pros and Cons.
for this year, I have everyTHING that I wanted.
but, I dont have everyPEOPLE that I wanted.

*senyum lagi*

Thursday, Sept 18th, 2008

as usual, the day started early, I woke up and found out that I am all alone, kak Leen had gone to work and my parents balik kmpung, they need to settle something.

bangun, mandi2, siap2, chow pi college.


they called me birthday girl, which blushed me. hehe. and the moment I walked into class, Wawa, my twinnie, sang Happy Birthday to me, LOUD. haha. so, everyone in my class knew it was my birthday, so, I'm getting blusherette. hehehe :P

class finished before 11, so, I'm free the whole day. but I dont know what to do. I dont have money, minyak kerete pon mcm cukup2 nak balik rumah, its puasa, its morning, my parents not here, so, what should I do. huwm. I thought, this day will be boooooored :]


as I reached home, mesin kain sume2, then, I was like huwm. baking. lets bake. so, I baked my famous chocolate chip cookies. Mira cookies, mira cookies. haha. I made alot, I want to introduce the cookies to my relatives, hope they like it. anyway, a lot of things playing around my head, but I dont want to think about it. Lets just go through the day. so, I baked and baked and baked, all alone, by myself, on my birthday. sounds pathetic kan? takpe lah. I know, as you read this, there will be other people cheering for me. 'haha. pdn muke, dh kene tngal dgn kwn, sorang2 kau. haha.. dlu ade bf, bekepit tak ingt, skrang sorang2 padan muke. lone ranger la kau'.

they will be peoples talking those kind of stuff to me, whoever it is, I dont know, and I dont give a damn. I didnt left my friends, and yes, I chose to be like this, on my own. aaaah. stop thinking bout it, buat semak kepale je.

yup, call me old skool, but baking really comforts me

but an hour later, Chin came and she brought cake ! aaaaw, thank youuuuu. I almost forgot it was my birthday because I felt so empty, nothing ever excites me. Luckily she brought cakes, well, at least, ade la jugak rase birthday.

Many people been whining to me, sibuk betol dgn 18th brthday, FYI people, turning 18 is such a big deal to me. You may think it was stupid, its the same thing that happen every year, and you turning a year older, why should you be excited, you should be sad because you turning to be OLD.

for me, turning 18 is like turning to another life. being 18, your life is actually changing, little by little. I drive now, can you imagine how it feels like driving on your on to a shopping mall, buying groceries all by yourself, yes, you have parents, you have families, you have friends, but still, you on your own. On that moment, I felt like, daaamn. I'm on my own. I am responsible for myself. Mase yang kene kacau dgn nigga tu, I was scared. I was never alone before. No. Never. My parents wont allowed me to go anywhere if I'm alone, thats when I was with Qayyum, he's always there with me because he knew my parents, he knew that my parents wont allowed me to be alone, thats why, no matter where I go, he will try to be with me. So, now, I'm all alone, drive to college everyday alone, going almost everywhere alone, I'm on my own.
turning 18 is a big thing for me because, finally, I'm done with school. 6 years in primary and 5 years in secondary, now I'm done with it. Yes, I do miss the life, but hey. move on. grow up okayy.
END. too many things to be listed and I know, you guys couldnt care less bout it kan. haha. fucker :D

oh. Pole did text me, wished for my birthday, kinda surprised he still remember it. yes, Pole my FRIEND *hahaha* aku sayang kau lagi. ade lagi saki baki nye di hati ku ini. PFFTT. haha.
Biha text me, just a simple "Happy Birthday ;) " . huwm. well, better than nothing.
and NO.
Qayyum did not text me. NO. NO. NO. not even a simple 'Hpy B-day' or whatever. Nothing. so, huwm. hey Qayyum, if you're reading this, your last year wished is still in my phone, I listen to that. Call me desperado, I DONT CARE.

told you lotsa things goin in my head, but I dont want to think about it.
nnt mesti jadi emotional. taksuke.
birthday girl kene happy happy kan?
*senyum lebar lebar nampak semua gigi, smpai hidung kembang teros*

Thanx for the cake Chin, ILY :D

birthday wishes

First of all, I want to thanked to each and everyone that had been wishing me. I am so flattered by it.

my collegemate was awesome. All of them texted me at 12 midnight. You guys are awesome, its really a great feeling to have such a great new friend, after what I've gone through.

some of my ex-schoolmate, did text me too. haha. I was surprised they still remember my birthday. heee :P

and not too forget, all the new friends that I made/met, thanx for all the wishes.
whether is thru SMS, Facebook, Myspace, Email, YM, MSN, call and even my blog,
I truly appreciate it. like, seriously :D

but, you what really made my day :
at 11 pm on Sept 17th, 2008, I receive a call from Aussie number, EZAN ALIA !
she called jst to wish my brthday, aaaaaaaaaaaw. thanx sayang. ILoveYou :)
and I receive this from my Teddy :P
haha. she even made this picture as her default. heee. thanx nyah !

Allah Selamatkan Saya

hey Amira Zafirah,
Happy Birthday to You.
You're 18 now. as years grow older, so does your thinking.
go on, have fun with what you have now.

" at least you dont have to collect stones, you
have enough diamonds in your life "

tomorrow

I'll be 18th years old.
I've been living in this world for 18 years.

can anybody/anything EXCITES me?

Dear God,
please give me strength to carry on with my life, until the last breath.

hehehe. lapau :D

ehehehhehehe. saya sudah "cuti". tak faham? bulan puasa, para wanita kan memang diperuntukkan MC. hahaha. ngeng. tak faham sudah. bengap sangat. wahahaha :D

so, today ntah pukul bape, Mak kacau aku tido, dia kte dia nak balik kampung. huh?! "balik hari je Ya. petang before buka, Mak sampai lah" oow. okay okay. booom. sambung tido. taw2 bangun, ngam ngam je on time siap2 nak pi college. then biler siap siap, masuk kete, dh gerak sume. teringat pulak "aiseyy. tak makan ape doww. aku kan tak pose. bengong.". haha. so, takpeee. bertahan bertahan. sampai college pulak, class petang tade. alhamdulillah, class pagi je. hehe. pukul 1pm, chow bebeh.

then, text Chin, ajak pi Jusco Maluri, mau ke MPH, cri buku meyh. tapi perut dh bunyi bunyi *kriok kriok. echee. sound effect pulak. haha* dh dpt buku sume, suro Chin pg beli something2, lapar seyy. kat rumah kuih raya je ade. aiseyy. Chin pulak tanak, dia kata malu. Ekelleeh. Jadah nye kau nak malu Chin, kau cine kott. Grr. haha. so, takpe, kami ke Dive Thru McD, nun di Tmn Connought, dekat saje. *vrrrroooom. echeee. bunyi kete nak power je :D

anyway, ada dgr crite pasal Tmn Connaught? kn ada yg crew TV3 kene attack dgn nigga. huwm. takot okay. mmg situ byk giler nigga. hain. since the nigga incident, I am so scared at nigga, like seriously, dh jdi mcm phobia taw. lagi2 bila jalan sorang2, everytime I see nigga, I thought it was the same guy yang kacau. It happen because I cant remember how he looks like. so, yea. that scares me :(

well, back to the topic, kami pon pgi la drve thru mcD, order kt machine, thn tgk kt cashier tu lelaki. alamak, malu nyee, mase tu muke dh tebal giler dh. tp takpe, sbb ade motor dpn kitorang, 2 orng pompuan, haha. order jgk. nampak nau tak pose nye. so, takpe, chill. mase byr pon, senyum2 kambing2 je lah. haha. thn biler dh settle sume, balik la rumah.
pastu, ckp la dkt Chin "harap2 la neighbour kelantan aku tu tade kt luar, kalo ade, kantoi je duuh. haha" skali sesampai depan rumah, hamek kauu. dia ada doww. tgh basuh moto. aiseymen. cuak dh ni. malu dh ni. haha.
tp takpe, chill. Chin kan ade, Chin kn besar. eh. Beg Chin kn besar * HA HA HA*. kasi sorok baik punyeeee, suro Chin lalu celah2 kete, *nasib park jauh sikit from tiang. hehe, tidak kang msti tesekat :P* confirm lepas. hahaha. nasib doww. kalau tak, mmg malu giler la kott. hehe.

bukak pintu, masuk dalam, tutup pintu langsir, bukak lampu, kipas.
teros MELANTAK. lapau nyah lapau.

hehehe :D