ciao 2009 !

as usual, lets review what happened back in 2009.

1 . on January, I was still posting about Yana. it was just few weeks since the confirmation about her Leukimia, things was still a bit not okay with our family.

2. received a stupid phone call from a crazy lady saying that I'm a homewrecker. bodo kan. motif gile aku nak kacau laki kauu. hahaha.

full story click here.

3. 3 of my girlfriends off to study far away from me. Alia at Melbourne, Wawa at Melaka and Chin at Poly. was uber sad when they left, especially Alia. I was mad crying. haha

4. when Chin left, I became super duper dupidest close with Ady. start calling each other Papi, Mami. he was soooo nice to me, we did almost everything together, going everywhere together. after reading all the entries back in 2009, I know exactly why I love being with this guy. but now, we're kinda drifting apart a bit cause we're both kinda busy. so, whenever I miss him, I will read all the old entries of him. it makes me feel close with him (:

5. HA ! Pole and Chin ade blog okay. but now, dua2 blog harem jadah tak ber-update. choyy sgt.

6. I cut my hair few times. hahaha.

full stories click here, here and here

7. Alia's new house at Shah Alam was all set. we're both happy with it but kinda sad to cause rumah kitorang dah jauh. susah sikit nak jumpe.

full story, click here

8. since I was super duper close with Ady, people had started talking bout us, and like asking are we together or whatever. I end up making a full entry about our relation, a clear statement of it

full story, click here and here.

9. I did my first ever v-log. was soo stupid and the quality of the vdeo was so bad. haha

full story, click here.

10. me, Ady, Pole and Chin went to Mocca's concert at Shah Alam. it was a birthday present from me to Ady. was suppeeeer fun, we didnt even sleep that night. haha

full story, click here

11. I received my first ever saman. bukan police la tp saman DBKL sbb part kt tepi jalan. haha

12. changed my handphone couple of times, from N73 to HTC Tytn II to Motorola V9 to Nokia E66. and now, I'm using Blackberry Curve 8900 *jeee. haha

full story, click here

13. still remember Bambi? haaaa, Bambi kene hempap pokok. dpn rumah je okay. grrr

full story, click here

14. I start my online business, selling cupcakes. had my own cupcakes website. LVCupcakes, LV stands for Little Voice, my blog title (:

full story, click here

15. oowww. of all the entries that I had written in this blog, theres this one entry that said to be most honest entry ever, said by my readers.

full story, click here.

16. hahha. in 2009 jugak la I know the BIGGEST FAKER EVER. mmg super faker nak matik. lahanat sgt okay.

17. uuww, had a reunion with my Madu's. haha

full story, click here

18. kak Leen bought Speedy by Louis Vuitton. fuuyyoooo !

full story, click here

19. in 2009 jugak, mmg rmai yg pergi buat selamanya. Yasmin Ahmad, Ustaz Asri *Rabbani* Michael Jackson, Fara Fawcett, Brittany Murphy. and also, Kobain's brother. *sobs

20. Bye Bambi, Hello Lola :D

full story, click here

21. special date. 090909. this year tunggu 101010. waaaah, best !

22. did my first ever public embarrassment. HAHAHA

full story, click here

23. first time in my entire life, I donated my blood. heeee,

full story, click here

24. Ady and Dann balik kampung. yeaaaaay ! it was a greaaat time !

25. review by MSN Malaysia. hehhe

full story, click here

26. went to Singapore with Ady's family. another great holidayy.

so, thats all I think. greatest of 2009.

2010. what do you have for me eh?

it better be good.

*update

start of 2010 is really really worse.

masih ade yang kisah

theres a she wolf in the closet, open up and set it free,

aaaaaaaaauuuuuuuuuuuuwwwwwww..

- She Wolf, Shakira

waaaaaaaah, title nak prasan lebiiih.

ucheyyy. korang korang kaaan, saje jee kaaaaan.

mak dh sentap sentap, agak tunggu masa nak touching lebiiih, baru la kedek kedek kan.

koseeee taw ;p

anyway, thank youuuuuuuu.

ingat kan blog ni tunggu mase nak tutop jeee, rupenyee adooo jugak lagi yang kisah kisah.

heee, lps ni kalau ape2, aku mrajok lagi lah.

bule bule bule? bule aaaaarrrrr.

okay. paaaaaaaang muke aku 78 kali. hahaha :D

ni aku nak cite ni.

taw taaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaak. *ala2 mcm dlm vlog dlu tu. haha*

this week punye morning class en, haram jadah aku tak pegi okayyy. hahaha.

mak overslept la noook. hiks.

bukak mate tengok jam, baru 6.30am. chill ar, awal lagi. skali lagi bukak, hamek kooo. 8.30am.

class at 840am, mmg taaaak ar en.

today pon same jugak, 8.26 aku tejaga, tu pon sbb Oya call aku tanye kat mane. haha.

ape nak jadi ni Miraaaa, sedar diri weyyy.

tapi en, serious doow. aku rindu zaman dulu dulu.

macam last semester, aku satu class dgn Luqman, dgn Kadi. syook wooo. even mmg la 2 orng mamat ni mmg suke nauuu nyakit kn hati aku, lagi lagi la si Kadi, tapi mak tetap sokeeeee.

dulu, kalau class pgi, mesti Luqman kejotkan. mamat ni bangun pagi mesti call aku, kejot kejot kan aku skali.

tpi, no matter how early I reached at the hostel, nak pungut mamat mamat ni, sampai class mesti lambat jugak. haha. Kadi arr punye pasal. tunggu dia siap berzamaaaan !

pastu en, dlu en last sem en, mcm syok doow. kalau class at 840am en, aku msuk pkol 9am lebih lebih sket en, orng sume mcm takesah je dow. dh ar masuk lambat en, pastu buat lawak bodo lg dgn lecturer. hahaha.

sampai dlu en, ade skali, classmate kitorng ingt aku, Luqman dgn Kadi tak dtg class taw, sume dh muke boring. bile kitorng masuk class je, classmate kitong sume mcm "haaaaa. smpai dah. riuh sikit. haha". terharu weyyy.

kitorng dlm class mmg riuh gileeee. hahaha. lagi lagi kalau english class, confirm kitorng 3 msti ddok row paling dpn, pastu ape2 je mesti berentap dgn lecturer. hahaha. bile lecturer suro get into group en, kitorng mesti kne asing asing. lecturer takkan kasi kitorng stay in the same group. haha. sbb dia taw nnt group lain mesti kalaaaah punye. hahaha. vangga lebih en. haha

kalau group je usually Luqman jauh sikit la, aku dgn Kadi mst compete tahengat punyee. hahaha. sorry baby maman, mmg btol pon en. haha.

pastu kalau dlm class, Kadi dgn Luqman mesti gado. wajiiib ! hahaha, bnd kecik2 bodo2 la, like nk pinjam pen, lupe nak silent phone, sentap sini sane. melampau eeeen. hahaha

but now in this sem.

reason aku hidup dlm class tu, mmg la sbb ade oxygen. duuh. ngeng dow korang. ceit. haha

okay, reason aku hidup dlm class tu sbb ade Oya, Erin, Ira and Dayah. sume bdk class mase first sem aku. diaorng ni je yg mmg masak dgn prangai aku yg sokeeeee nyakat orang, perli sini sane, buat lawak booddo. kalau diaorng tade en, mmg pindah college la aku kott. haha.

serious dowww, budak2 class sem ni mcm boring giler. sume nye nerd nak matii. stok nak blaja muke stresss. lansung tak bule nak gelak gelak ke hape keee. focus nak mati punyeee. dlm class diam je, ckp pon rupe tanak ckp. lansung tak friendly okayy.

kdang2 aku try nak borak dgn diaorng pon, diaorng mcm tanak layaan jee, mcm aku ni berok, diaorng tu kera. haaa, fhm tak. species same, bake je lain. hahaha.

haih, camno ni camnoo. dh nak dkt 2 bulan dh sem ni, camtu jugak. bosaaaaaaaaaaaan !

first semester was the greatest so far.

Kadi said, If there's a story to tell, it's all about our friendship

fuyh. as usual, sape bace sampai habis,

mak sayang kau lebiiiih noook :DD

oh. lupe. aku mcm ade niat sebenarnye ni.

aku cam nk buat competition la kan, sape menang aku ingt nak bg cupcakes for free.

tapi masalah nyeee, tataw nak buat competition ape.

huwm. any ideas?

stop touching me, without permission

- Bossy, Lindsay Lohan

bye 2008

some of the 2008 highlights, that I remember lah :)

• On the eve of 2008, I sleptover at Alia's house. konon nk sneak out so that we can celebrate new year, tapi tadapat pon. We end up duduk rumah, and her mommy bwk pg tgk fireworks dkt simpang rumah dia. Once we reached home, I had this crazy idea. hehe. We asked kakak, Alia's maid, buat kan air teh o, in the big bottle. when its done, we shaked it, pretend that its a Chivas. HA HA HA. ngengg. on the Jan 1st pulak, we went to Ezmira's house. Its my first time meeting her tp rase mcm biase je. haha. we hang out at OU the whole day.
  

• Jan 6th, Qayyum's birthday. I bought him a present. agak expensive la. for me. hehe. oh. its my first time EVER kumpul duit. I didnt shop for like 2-3months.

• and on the Jan 26th, me and Qayyum were officially broke up. hello devastation. haha.

• in 2008, theres couple of huge fight between me and my besties. mostly are between me, Pole and Biha. that really effect us. alhamdulillah, me and Pole are getting better but things are still rough between me and Biha.

• I went to AUSTRALIA. weeee*. haha. only for 10days, without my parents. I went with kak Yanie. hehe. stayed at Melbourne for 7days and Sydney for 3days. I touched kangaroo and koala. they are soo cute. I've seen the famous Opera House, the Harbour Bridge. huwm. what else. lotsa things I've done and seen. Including lil bad things. Oh. when I went there, Alia was there too. yeeey. we hang out by ourselves. huuu. scaryy. haha.

• Coach is my first well-knowed branded bag that I have right now. Guess ke ape ke, tolak tepi la eh. hehe. It was a gift from kak Mariah and her hubby, Bill. I got that after I was their photographer for their engagement party.

• Alia went off to study. She went to Aussie for her foundation. sedih giler okay.

• I cant remember the exact that I snucked out. haha. First time I snucked out was with Pole. eh. chop. this was last year lah. haha. late last year. ceit. cancel :D

• while waiting for my SPM result, I was a babysitter. hehe. I babysit Oni for few months.

• starting from July, I'm a college student. weeeee. haha. no more homework okay. assignments sudaaa. haha.

• I have driving license now. yey. sekali pass je taw. hahaha. vangga vangga :P Johor and Perak is the furthers state that I drove.
  

• I made my own cupcakes. It turned out to be good. haha. My first customer is Dann. thanx nyah for believing in me :)

• I went to Summer Splash. It was hectic. me and Alia did some drama in front of the policeman in order to get in. haha. Its my first time wearing bikini. waaaaah. haha. I met a lot of new friends. Thanx a lot to Biha.

• I remember this one time yang kene kacau dgn nigga dkt KlCC. yeaaa. the one yg mse dkt Topshop tu. sumpa scary siak. haraaaaaap sgt it wont happen again. until now, mmg phobia gilos tgk nigga.
  

• first time I bowled. haha. I've never done bowling okay. Thanx to Luqman and Fatin, they both encourage me. so, I bowled lah. It was at Alamanda. hehe.

• I got HTC TYTN II, a PDA for my birthday. thanx Baba, and oh. not to forget my all-time-favourite Swatch which I've been aiming for long time. Thanx Baba, again. hiks.

• 2008 is year of kebaya for me. haha. I made a promise to myself that I will only start to wear kebaya when I'm 18. so, yup I wore it during Raya. until now, I have 3piece of kebaya. cukup la.

• after like 3months I think, Chin finally surprised me. haha. She bought Paris Hilton purse for my belated birthday present. yeeeey. thaaaank you.

• now I have my own SLR. eventhough its only Sony Alpha 200, but I'm blessed. cukup la. canggih2 pon bkn nye reti gune. huwm. nnt nk beli lens la. haha. mcm la lens murah kan. haaaaktuii :D

• Atok passed away, few days before Aidiladha. Yaa rindu sgt kt Atok taw ;(

• Yana confirmed diagnosed with Acute Leukimia. until now, we're strong to get through it.

• lastly, in 2008. I have blog. amirachaos.blogspot.com // Little Voice is born :D

thats all I can remember for now.
past is past. lets make a new memories.

dear 2009,
promise me one thing please? Dont let me down.
EVER again.

:)

still standing

first thing first, I dont actually know how to do the sticky mode. so. please, ignore the dates in my blog for these few entries taw. hehe.

anyway, lepak lepak with Chin. yea, we always lepak together, but not until Friday, she came and we lepak-ed in my room. huwm. lotsa things was said and talked about.

we talked and talked and talked. I was like "huwm. when was our last sleepover. oh. baru lagi". but Chin said, "No. that one dkt bwh. its been soo long tak tido in your room."
yea. my room is mesyy, super mesyy. but, they like it. kan? and I was like, huwm. Biha.
and all of a sudden, we talked about Pole, and Chin confessed something, kinda shock, for me.
"Aku rindu Pole dow". I respond by saying, "duuh. mesti lah." and we talked about something. off the blog. sorry.
and as I was packing my stuff, thing bout Qayyum came up. sorry. off the blog jugak. its not that we talked about bad stuff, NO. we talked bout memories, bout everything except for bad stuff.
so, whats the point of me telling you what we talked about cause in the end, its worthless. Orang dah tak appreciate, dah tak suke, tagune cakap apa2 pun kan.

hey, Raya is coming up.

and to them, I'm sorry for everything and yes, your apologised are accepted :)

tiap hari sayang

yup, couple of hours ago, the cake that Chin brought was finally been cut.

I took the cake from the fridge.

I place it on the box.

I placed the candle, I lighted it.

I blowed it.

thanx to kak Leen, I forced her to snap some photos.

yup, unlike my last 2 years birthday, I had been surprised by them. They brought the cakes, they payed for what I ordered, they forced me to blow the candles, they busy snapping the photos.

Mereka suap saya makan :]

eh. kan dh promised myself jangan ingat semua tu, nanti emosi

* cracked smile *

blow Mira blow * God, bless me more with your blesssing *

Aiman ade, dia teman kan. yeay :))siapa kate kalau sedih mesti kene nangis, tade la. jadi gile mcm tu pun bule taaw :PLilyLotus, suke word ni kan, I captured this for you :)

Betul lah kate orang, everything mesti ade Pros and Cons.
for this year, I have everyTHING that I wanted.
but, I dont have everyPEOPLE that I wanted.

*senyum lagi*

Thursday, Sept 18th, 2008

as usual, the day started early, I woke up and found out that I am all alone, kak Leen had gone to work and my parents balik kmpung, they need to settle something.

bangun, mandi2, siap2, chow pi college.


they called me birthday girl, which blushed me. hehe. and the moment I walked into class, Wawa, my twinnie, sang Happy Birthday to me, LOUD. haha. so, everyone in my class knew it was my birthday, so, I'm getting blusherette. hehehe :P

class finished before 11, so, I'm free the whole day. but I dont know what to do. I dont have money, minyak kerete pon mcm cukup2 nak balik rumah, its puasa, its morning, my parents not here, so, what should I do. huwm. I thought, this day will be boooooored :]


as I reached home, mesin kain sume2, then, I was like huwm. baking. lets bake. so, I baked my famous chocolate chip cookies. Mira cookies, mira cookies. haha. I made alot, I want to introduce the cookies to my relatives, hope they like it. anyway, a lot of things playing around my head, but I dont want to think about it. Lets just go through the day. so, I baked and baked and baked, all alone, by myself, on my birthday. sounds pathetic kan? takpe lah. I know, as you read this, there will be other people cheering for me. 'haha. pdn muke, dh kene tngal dgn kwn, sorang2 kau. haha.. dlu ade bf, bekepit tak ingt, skrang sorang2 padan muke. lone ranger la kau'.

they will be peoples talking those kind of stuff to me, whoever it is, I dont know, and I dont give a damn. I didnt left my friends, and yes, I chose to be like this, on my own. aaaah. stop thinking bout it, buat semak kepale je.

yup, call me old skool, but baking really comforts me

but an hour later, Chin came and she brought cake ! aaaaw, thank youuuuu. I almost forgot it was my birthday because I felt so empty, nothing ever excites me. Luckily she brought cakes, well, at least, ade la jugak rase birthday.

Many people been whining to me, sibuk betol dgn 18th brthday, FYI people, turning 18 is such a big deal to me. You may think it was stupid, its the same thing that happen every year, and you turning a year older, why should you be excited, you should be sad because you turning to be OLD.

for me, turning 18 is like turning to another life. being 18, your life is actually changing, little by little. I drive now, can you imagine how it feels like driving on your on to a shopping mall, buying groceries all by yourself, yes, you have parents, you have families, you have friends, but still, you on your own. On that moment, I felt like, daaamn. I'm on my own. I am responsible for myself. Mase yang kene kacau dgn nigga tu, I was scared. I was never alone before. No. Never. My parents wont allowed me to go anywhere if I'm alone, thats when I was with Qayyum, he's always there with me because he knew my parents, he knew that my parents wont allowed me to be alone, thats why, no matter where I go, he will try to be with me. So, now, I'm all alone, drive to college everyday alone, going almost everywhere alone, I'm on my own.
turning 18 is a big thing for me because, finally, I'm done with school. 6 years in primary and 5 years in secondary, now I'm done with it. Yes, I do miss the life, but hey. move on. grow up okayy.
END. too many things to be listed and I know, you guys couldnt care less bout it kan. haha. fucker :D

oh. Pole did text me, wished for my birthday, kinda surprised he still remember it. yes, Pole my FRIEND *hahaha* aku sayang kau lagi. ade lagi saki baki nye di hati ku ini. PFFTT. haha.
Biha text me, just a simple "Happy Birthday ;) " . huwm. well, better than nothing.
and NO.
Qayyum did not text me. NO. NO. NO. not even a simple 'Hpy B-day' or whatever. Nothing. so, huwm. hey Qayyum, if you're reading this, your last year wished is still in my phone, I listen to that. Call me desperado, I DONT CARE.

told you lotsa things goin in my head, but I dont want to think about it.
nnt mesti jadi emotional. taksuke.
birthday girl kene happy happy kan?
*senyum lebar lebar nampak semua gigi, smpai hidung kembang teros*

Thanx for the cake Chin, ILY :D

advance present

my 18th birthday is in 2 weeks, but I already received my advance present :) SWATCH watch, which I've been aiming for such a long time.
thanx Baba ! <333

frankly, I'm not excited at all about my birthday. Its my 18th, it should excite me. right?
but I'm not, No, I'm just not.
because,
I know Its gonna be different, not like the previous birthday anymore.
different environment, different feeling, different PEOPLE

Dear God,

eventhough my birthday this year is not as complete as the previous year, but still, I'm hopping you will complete my whole entire life with your blessing, complete my life with your lights that will always shine on me, complete my life by giving me strength to cope with every situation that I will face in the future.
and, protect my family from any harmful situation and bless them with your hidayah,
all of my wonderful friends, old or new, who always be there for me, thru good or bad, please protect them my dear God, bless them with your full blessing.
and also, protect my dearest friends from any disaster, protect Ezan Alia, she's far away from her family, always protect her from any accidents and guide her to good life, Chin Ai Lin, give her strength to live her live, make her believe that she's not worthless, make her realize that she just need some guidance to success, Nabihah Adilah, protect her, secure her, save her from any bad intentions from other people, glow her some of your lights so she can know whats really right or wrong, who loves her because of her insight not from her outsight, Khairul Anuar, always protect him from any misfortune, let him know that theres more to come, let him know that what he have now wont promise him a great life in the future.
and lastly, Abdul Qayyum, protect, save, blessed and love him for me. protect him from saying something that he will regret in his whole live, save him from any harmful, any misfortune, and blessed him with your hidayah, as I'm not with him anymore, can you please make him remember all the things I've told him, make him be very patient and understand why is his parents being a little harsh on him.
And God, you can take me away from them, but to them, can you please dont take the all the memories that they have with me? Please, that is all I'm asking for now. Do take me away from them, maybe I'm not meant, not worth to be with them, but dont take the memories, that is the only thing that I left for them.
Baba and Mak, kak Leen and Memy, I LOVE YOU. fullstop. no elaboration needed

Love,
Amira

kampung story 1

ahha. i knoowwww. lame gileeeeeeer tak update okayy. kalau dh lame tak update tu, makne nyee I am somewhere with no internet connection. ade fahaaaam? ahha. bagus anak anak ikan ku :D

anyway, as I mentioned before, I was forced to balik kampung kan, so I spend 5DAYS in kampung. ya allah.

nothing much to update except on my Monday. kat sane hujan punye lah lebaaaaaaaat. dlm pukul 2-3am mcm tu la dh start hujan. bunyi guruh dia mmg sgt menakutkan okay. and hujan tu pulak berlarutan. mmg the whole day lah hujaaaan je. sampai my house pon banjir.

tp tade la bnjir air naik smapi 3-4 meter. ats sikit dr buku lali tu jee. haha. tp, kire dkt porch kate tu mmg air betakung tawwww. mak tgh intai jiran sblah heeee. siap ada ikan haruan sesat maaaa. haha
dan berjaya ditangkap abg Anip. haha. tp kejap jeee. ikan tu lompat kuar from besen tu. ceit

kitorang pon tgg je lah hujan tu smpai agak2 nk reda, thn sesi cleaning pon bermula. mmg whole day main air. baba dgn abg anip mmg basah lenjun. ntah apa diaorng buat lg pon tataw lah.

ahha. Azleen yg vogue memanjang kt Talisman tu pon join jugak

dan saya ?

ada di dalam rumah. ikot kn hati mmg la nk join skali, sape tanak kan, main air okay.
tapi, saya demam. terok lgi. haih. a night before tu pgi clinic and my temperature rised up to almost 40degrees. haih

those 2 guys

from the previous entry, ade yang bace, then made assumption that I'm HAPPY
huwm :

I have been receiving such a various comments and critics about my blog. some might say its interesting, some might say its funny and some might say its just fun to read. there also some people that didnt quite understand what my entry is about and that because they did not read the previous entry that I posted.
whatever it is, THANK YOU for reading. like it or not, still, you visit this webpage

anyway, the previous entry was made because on the same date last year, it was my declaration day. yup, with Qayyum. yes, I know, I know, move on ! but hey, put yourself in my shoes, will you ever forget it? will you ever forget things that you did for the first time in your entire life and it actually can change you future?
tak faham? its okay. dont bother.
what I'm trying to say is, yes. I have move on, but still, can you ever forget, like I mentioned before, things that can change your entire life, like, the first time you had your period, and guys, first time you had your wet dream? :P
I'm not being pervert or saying something fetish, but hey. those things you will actually remember for your entire life. right?

Qayyum was first. click on the link below, you will know the whole story
as if you want to know :)

Pole, huwm. I just didnt expect that me and him will end up like this.
still remember the previous entry, the one that I copied from Chin's myspace blog. yea. that one.
few days later, Pole text me. He said sorry and asked for forgiveness.
I'm cool with it, like I said before, I do forgive him but I never forget what he had done to me or to my friends.
Way back then, me and Pole was very close, very very close. I was closed with him first before I was actually closed with Qayyum. Even Biha was pissed with me because I was being to close with Pole, that was before we knew each other very well.
but now, since all the things that Chin wrote in her blog, Pole said he is backing off. He doesnt want to interrupt us anymore but no matther what, if we find ourself together, just say Hi.
I'm like what ! not another one. Qayyum had been missing in my life for 6months and now Pole.
I didnt expect it to turn out like this. It shouldnt be okay. The reason Chin wrote it so that Pole will read and realised his own mistakes and will try to make it up to us, not cutting off our friendship. NO

but, I guess, I was wrong.
huwm. another one gone. Qayyum & Pole, my favourite people in my entire life.
*sigh*

oh. I blame EGOISM.
I admit, I was never been ego before, like seriously. I think I have like 0.001% of Egoism.
everytime we fought or things get rough, I will try to tolerate with them. No matter what, I will let myself to consolidate all of us together.
but now, no. my Ego percentage have strongly increase and my mood to console people had also be strongly decreasing. and, this is what I get.
so, EGOISM. I blame you.
go and fuck yourself okay.

feels like, just a blink of an eye

AUGUST 4th, 2007

bangun pagi today, baba dgn mak balik kmpng, kak Leen dkt rumah cik Enon and Memy pulak dkt Keramat. haih. sorang2. so, mintak la tolong bpk Chin hantar, takpe. sbb Chin pon mmg ade extra class, awal pun awal lah. janji dpt kluar. huwm. pagi2 lgi dh sampai dkt Komersial, breakfast sume2, takde la pagi mane pon, tak lame sangat tunngu dia. lepak2 dlu, thn jumpe Biha, dia baru balik dkr extra class, pgi BTR nk jumpe Pole, tp biler diaorng jumpe, gado pulak. last2, Biha merajuk. terus naik taxi balik rumah, yang Pole blah macam tu. tapi kejap je, tak lame lepas tu, dia datang skali lepak dgn kitorang. sblum pkol 12 tengok2, Yum dah sampai. eh! baju color same. heeee..macam couple je. hehhe. takpe lah. takisah pooon. orang sume pandang, yelah. msing2 sibuk nak pgi or balik frm extra class. tapi kitorang, sibuk nak kuar pgi KLCC. haha.

motif? tade ape2. saje2 nak kuar. bosan. SPM tak lame lgi je. puas belajar 5hari seminggu. aku sampai sekolah pkol 6.30am, balik pon 6.30 pm. sehari suntuk dkt skola,so, dh hujung minggu, bule lepak2 jalan2 kan :P then, kitorang pon gerak la ke KLCC. yup. berdua je. kenape eh? huwm. ntah la. sejak2 ni, mmg slalu pulak la kitorang kluar berdua. sebelum ni tak silap nya dah 2-3 kali jugak la kitorang dh kuar berdua, selalunye ramai2 kan, tp lately berdua jee. tp takpe. tak kisah pon. memang kitorang sekepala je. dia pun taw, if kluar dgn aku mesti kene balik before 7pm. memang curfew. so, dia pon memang tak kisah.

pgi la kitorang berdua ke KLCC, smpai sane, makan sume. huwm. best. sangat..ntah la. biar aku je yang taw. tapi, kluar dgn dia kali ni mmg lain. ntah. perasaan tu mcm semacam je. macam mesra lebih. haha. tade ah. kitorang kan kawan baik, so. yea. mmg mesra. tapi... tak lame lepas tu,tengok2 Pole dgn Biha sampai KLCC jugak. dh baik la tu. diorang gado bukan lame mane poon. so, lepak2 jap, then kitorng nk pgi Bkt Bintang. so, naik cab. mmg fixed price, RM10. tong2 bayar. jalan2 pulak dkt Bkt Bintang. lepak sane sni. window shopping dengan Biha, syok je. dah penat. lepak pulak dkt Starbuck dkt Low Yat tuh. lame jugak kitorang lepak, mcm biase Chocolate Cream Chip memang favourite aku, so confirm2 la order yang tu. thn minum la kitorang 4orang. Biha setia je dgn caramel dia tuh. aku tak sukee. haha. lepak2, sesi2 amek gmbar pon ade jgk. thn, kitorang gelak2 kn Pole sbb dia pronounce brand Couch tu as couch (sofa). haha. memang la kitorang sume gelak giler je. huwm. thn, tbe2 Biha mcm moody, ckp2 dgn Pole sume, and rupe2 nye papa dia bising, suro dia balik sekarang. yelah, kan pgi dia pgi extra class, thn balik kejap thn taw2 dh sampai KLCC, tu la yg papa dia bising, agak nye lah. aku dgn Yum wat bodo je. kitorang mcm dlm dunia sendri. hehhe. tataw la kenapa. hari tu best je. mcm tenang je and even hari dh lewat ptg, aku mcm tak kisah pon nak balik. huwm. takpe lah. ngelat dgn mak la, ckp la ape2, yang penting bukan nye aku balik midnight pon. and biler dh jalan2 smpai times square tu, Biha ckp dia nak balik, so, dia pon balik dlu. Pole hantar smpai LRT. cadangnye, aku balik dgn dia, yelah. rumah dkt je en. tapi ntah. aku tanak balik. mse tu dh nak dkt 6.00pm dh. tanak la balik la. nak lepak lagi. nak jalan2 dgn Yum lagi. so, kitorang pon masuk Times Sq tu, jalan2 lgi, tengok sane sini, window shopping, masuk la sume kedai2, Yum tak habis nk tengok brng skate lah, pgi melawat studio yg dia slalu jamming kt ats tu lah. mmg buang mase je kat sne taw. hehhe. ye ye. mmg aku sedar, agak2 buang mase jgk la. haha. pastu biler dh nk dkt 7.30, baru la kitorang gerak balik.

pastu mcm fikir2, mcm mane nak balik rumah eh. kt LRT BTR tu bkn nye ade taxi petang2, so, Yum pon call la kawan dia kt downtown, Uncle, tokey shesha kat situ, mintak tolong dia hantar kan. dia ckp tabule sbb dia nak jage kedai, tapi takpe. Daus bule hantar. tapi, kitorang kene lepak downtown dlu sbb Daus kete dia kt rumah. so takpe lah. Uncle dtg amek kitorang dkt LRT, bwk la pi downtown. then, Daus naik moto dgn Yum balik rumah Daus pi amik kete. Aku pulak mcm takut je ddk tunggu Yum kt dwntwn tu sorang2, I mean dgn Uncle lah. masuk ni dh 2kali jumpe Uncle, tapi still, mcm cuak je. then, Yum kate takpe, Uncle baik, takde nye dia nk buat ape2. huwm. okay. tungu kejap je. dlm mase 15min mcm tu, Yum sampai and then Daus smpai, bawak kete. som bule la balik. Daus tolong hantar aku balik, Yum ikot skali lah. teman kan. then biler smpai rumah, gelap. ye lah. dh mlm kan. nak dekat pukol 9pm dh kot. Yum teman masuk smpai depan pintu rumah, dia tgg smpai aku bukak pintu dlu. then.. Tuhan je yang taw, how happy I am. he said the 3-damn-words and then thats it, I couldnt believe it at first. let this be my own secret. how it happen, how did he said it, everything. let just keep this to me. Aku tanye dia, betol ke, are you sure you want to take this to another level, and he said Yes.

haha. call it lame or whatever but for me, its priceless. ape yang terjadi lepas tuh biarkan aku, dia dan Tuhan je yang tahu. but whatever it is, nothing, I repeat, nothing can make me forget it.

and today, Aug 4th, 2008.
I'm here. by myself with our memories that never fades.
but I will never make myself down again.

*in Loving Memories of Our Friendship and Romance*

videoos

haha. enjoyy :D

turn back time, please?

tadi, Amir, my schoolmate dulu, sent comment dkt myspace

"bang bang bang!"

aku reply

"waaah. lame tak dgr orng pngil aku name tu. haha"

then reply nye

"haha. saje nk ingat kisah kisah zaman skola".

shit.

its not that I hate my school life, NO.

I LOVE MY SCHOOL LIFE.

its the best time ever, and now.

RINDUUUUUUU :(

ingt lg mse ni kt dlm makmal bahasa, Chin sat on my lap. haha. tuh muke gmbira smcam. pstu gigi kuning :D kt assembly hall, mse ni senior yg active sume dpt certificate, including us :)

last assmebly we had, about a week later, SPM that is my Leng Leng, I lover her. she is so nice to me, she's my mentor.hehhe
early in the morning, before the last assmbley, in the toilet

dlm bilik Geo, mse ni kitorng kne hanle explorace for Merdeka. oh. itu Qayyum. yes. mse ni sdg hangat dilamun cintan :))

weird

weird stuff happened to me.
huwm.
ask Chin. she knows about it all.

the thing is, everytime I tried to move on, things from the past will come and haunt me.
but, I know I will get through with it.
dugaan dari Allah SWT kan?

haih.

takpe. Amira kan strong.

I'm the girl that smile when I'm hurt.

kan Biha?

the guy that responsible for the broken of heart :DD

ex-boyfriend, Qayyum.
sekian, harap maklum.

baahahaha. amik kau. korang ni mmg la tak faham faham. yg laki dlm previous entry tu bukan ex aku lah. siot giler je. ponek dh aku nk explain ape yg korang comment.

actually la en, mmg la gmbr ex aku ni mcm selebet je en ( HA HA HA HA HA ), tp aku tade dow gmbr dia sorang cam yg ala2 hensem2 gitu. haha. baru ke sedaaaar nyah.gmbr kitorang berdua ade la, tp sorry. off the blog. haha. sukatik aku lah.

anyway, dah. tatap la gmbr atas ni aje. jgn di comment2 lg kt entry yg lame tu, tnye ex -boyf ake ke tidak. heee..geli aku lah.

cheh

gheeee...
soulmate tu. hehe.
dh la amek gmbr dgn soulmate kau tu pkai baju hijau tuu.
upload kt myspc, caption soulmate.
kalu ye ponn, crik la bju lain. ni tak.
bju yg kau pkai mse kau declare dgn bekas bini kau a.k.a janda kau tu jgk la yg kau nak pakai.
alaaa.. tahengat ke sejarah baju tuuuh
takkan la tahengat kott.
kan tu bju yg kau pkai mse hri kite declare tuuuuh.
alaaa. yg kau pkai hijau, aku pkai hijau tuuuuuuh.
takkan la kau tahengat what happen mse hari kite declare tuuuuuuuh
daus siap tlong hntar aku balik tuuuuu.
hehe. aku takesah ko nk cam whoring dgn bini baru kau
tp kalo ye pon. hormat la sikit kt bju tuuu
kenangan kita berdua. PPPPFFFFFFFFFFFFTTTTTTTTTTTT . hahahaha.

heee.. geli aku.
pastu ade plak picture gf bru kau.
ape caption nye. oh. she's the one.
meyh meyh. i wanted to be the first one to wish you.
semoge berkekalan hingga akhir hayat.
waaaah. selamat pengantin baru.
baaahaha. :D

p/s: ini entry lepas geram. hehe. eyyy. mulot diam. ni blog aku. sukatik aku lah.

Assalammualaikum :)

in flight II

March 29th, 2008
Melbourne-Kuala Lumpur
Depart at 3.30pm (Melbourne time) Arrived at 8.16pm (KL time)

first meal in the flight, rice wth chicken curry. heee. malay food :D

oh. and bla bla bla. I did the usual thing, watched movies, listen to music/mp3
and.
I slept. haha. like really slept. the seats beside me are empty, 3 seats empty. haha. I lie down and slept :D
(can you imagine all the flight attendents saw me sleeping? haha.)

I woke up and this id what I get :)
Forever21 pumps. thanx to Memy, my brother. pumps ni la yg aku sarung when I was there
arrived. yeey ! and I still remember, tak saba2 nk jmpe Mak mase ni :D

in flight

haih. bosan bosan ni kan, I explored my folder in my PC and I found my folder, back when I was in Australia. ooooh.
how I miss Aussie, how I miss kak Maria, how I miss cik Enon, how I miss the all the excitement when I was there.
I miss the Aussie accent, all the shops by the road. goooosh. I wish I could go there again.

anyway, I decided I wanted to blog about what I did during my flight :)

March 19th, 2008
Kuala Lumpur -Melbourne
Depart at 9.35pm (KL time) Arrived at 8.20am (Melbourne time)

this is my first meal, which I cant remember the exact name but it have beefs in it. sedaap taw :)

later, we had magnum ice cream. ooow. naik flight MAS kan. syok la. haha. ni baru economy, belom business lg :D

my tummy was so fulled and I decided to watched movie, Juno. best best best :D

then, I watched Impak Maksima. what? support local industry lah :P

and this lady havent stop reading, as far as I noticed lah

meet..erk. I forgot her name. haha. sorry. anyway, she's the one that served us. She even asked me whether my hair is real. whattheheck. I replied by saying "yea, you think i'm wearing a wig?" and she's like "yeaa. !" haha. tagune betol. I'm not a drag queen.

haha. that is what I played. whatl aku terror baii :P

listening from song to songs, I made my own playlist and after this, I fell asleep for awhile :)

look at the time, the watch it still in KL time

I woke up, my neck is hurting me and its damn cold and just about time for breakfast
5.00am in KL, damn. subuh tuuu :D
this is so cool ! :DD
go on, read it. I was savely arrived,yes, just a 'lil early :)