;(

on Wednesday at around 8am, my grandfather passed away.

He left so peacefully at his house. After been sick for about a month, he finally took his last breath.

It was such a big lost for me, for my family. for all of us.
I was actually quite closed to him.
Every time we met, he will hug and kiss me.
I guess, theres no more.

The moment I arrived to the house, I promised myself to be strong.
and I did, at least for my mom.
She cried and cried. I just hug her and told her to be patience.

but, I was so sad. The moment my mom talked to her siblings and other peoeple, I just stared at my atok.
He was in front of me, no breathing.
I stared at him and cried. Tears rolled down on my face.
I leaned against the wall, and cried myself out. I just couldnt accept this.
I was it his house, no kissing, no hugging.
Pak Ogy, my uncle saw me and I asked me if I'm okay. I just nodded. He left to the kitchen.
I cried again.
Chik, another uncle of mine, came to me, and pat my head.
I cried even more.

I recite Yassin, prayers for him.
"Ya Allah, tempat kan dia dengan orang2 yg beriman. Ampun kan dosanya"

I went to grave and watched him buried in the ground.
;(

sorry, I cant continue.
pray for him please.

p/s : my blog will be dull for few days. Promise I'll be back in couple of day. I just need to be alone. Now, I'm off to kenduri tahlil.

friends, thank you. You know who you are right.

;(